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Ive been feeling very sad and depressed

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herosgate Level 143 Windia Buccaneer
This hasn't just started out of the blue, I've felt this way for quite some time now. I want to say this has started around my sophomore year of high school. I'm currently 19.
But I've never had it this bad, and no it's not some phase, it's not a breakup, and its not teenage angst. Lately, I've noticed that every time someone talks to me, I don't pay attention, or I just get very annoyed, even If its with my best friends, family, acquaintances, etc.. I remember I was very social, but now I'm noticing that I just don't want to talk to anyone or just being antisocial. I just keep everything to myself. I don't know how to explain this feeling. The things I used to like doing, no longer makes me happy... I consider those things as chore now and I find no pleasure in doing them. I find myself to be bored at whatever I'm doing. Whether I'm out, inside, with family, or with friends, I just feel extremely bored. I'm sleeping much more than I used to, I'm eating at least 2 meals a day, or maybe even 1. I don't really have an appetite either. I mean, sure ill put a smile on my face when I'm out so no one will ask me if anything is wrong. My close friends are in college, and they know that I've been like this. They even talked to me about it, and I just said that they made me feel better when I really didn't since I thought i was bothering them or wasting their time on me. I don't want to say I'm depressed either, because I don't know If I am. I don't enjoy talking to my friends about my feelings, I haven't gotten professional help in fear of my family judging me. I feel I'm being judged on a daily basis when I'm walking to my classes. I know my friends are there to help me whenever I need it, but lately I just feel like I'm bothering them. They're hanging out with friends in College, and sometimes I feel like they'll forget me at some point and move on with better things in their lives.

I'm scared and I don't know what I'm going to do.
Posted: September 2015 Permalink

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goldyboi Level 120 Scania Thunder Breaker 3
That's the most dumbest thing I ever heard.
Sep 11 2015
clownified Level 142 Arcania Dark Knight
The problem is that last sentence, why would you allow them to go on with better things in their lives. Don't you wish to be apart of that, or maybe not even apart of it, but have better things in your life as well. Trust me I've felt the same way, you constantly feel like a burden on others, you're constantly down, and just so dragged. The only way to change it is you, all you will find in your friends is advice but the choice is all yours, whether to break out of this routine or let it stay by your side. I know by me typing this it makes it seem like I think it's easy but I really know it's not.
Sep 11 2015
dorks Level 215 Bera Night Lord AUniversityO Guild See what games, anime & art dorks is intoDorks
yeah i started being depressed around high school too but by the time i got help i wouldn't say it was late but in a way it was
if it makes you feel any better, you don't actually need to have a reason to feel the way you do. on some days when i walked in to see my therpist, i told her i felt stupid for being there bc i felt like i didn't have real problems but at the same time i felt like poop
you're also not required to tell your friends and family if you're afraid of being judged. i've let it known to friends and save maybe 2 or 3 people, i've gotten overwhelming support.
sorry for inserting myself into this idk i got a lot of help from seeing a professional and it doesn't hurt to try esp if your school has those resources.
Sep 11 2015
fatheroftheyear Level 177 Broa Hayato 4
depression? more like binge watch a whole series and ignore all feelings.
Oh Eric Foreman, how did you land Donna?
Sep 11 2015
xronellx Level 139 Scania Night Lord
Cling to your friends. If they really are your friends they will always remember you and will always look out for you no matter how far apart or how long you guys haven't talked to each other.
Sep 11 2015
bluemistar Level 170 Windia ShadowerSheriff
ya me too
Sep 11 2015
musaab1 Level 210 Kradia Night Walker 4
Honestly, most of the advice/comments on this thread are pretty unhelpful but nothing was expected from basilmarket. Atleast Dorks took it seriously. You have all the signs of depression. I think you should get help even if you are scared of how you will be perceived. Alot of people view depression as some type of weakness coming from the person and that a change in attitude will negate the feelings/actions caused by depression. When in reality, it is a mental sickness. Get help. You aren't weak if you do, you are stronger than most people if you do.

Depression: The persistent feeling of sadness or loss of interest that characterizes major depression can lead to a range of emotional and physical conditions. These include inability to sleep or concentrate on tasks. Changes in appetite, decreased energy level, and thoughts of suicide are also seen.
Sep 11 2015
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