so we slept together kind of we cuddled naked, and i was worried that we were going to turn into sexual partners, but he reassured me that i didn't mess anything up, and i'm so high right now im cynical so im anticipating it to end poorly, but i have hope that we could be something..? ive never been happier in my life, i found someone that ive just kind of fallen in love with a little bit
so ive decided to continue being a whore after getting totally chewed up by ryan and his cheap bulls-hit ive decided to continue being a whore
so things didn't end well ..just don't know who to give my love to now
Are things just going to fall apart agai So im going on a date tonight apparently and I can't even focus cause i just got out of the worst part of my life and suddenly the worry is starting to kick in, what if I just mess things up, etc. Also there's this huge uncertainty about my future, where am I going, what the hell am I doing with my life, what if I don't become who I want to be, etc. What if things just don't turn out well? What if they try and come back for me? What if I can't control myself and I end up just getting into drugs again and OD on my medication? It just gets too difficult sometimes and I don't even have a clue what I'm doing or thinking. What if I make a really big mistake? What if I just can't chill out and end up turni
why is everything so boring and mundane like srsly dying of boredom over here I'm meeting my doc tomorrow and maybe I can get some benzos but that's about as exciting as it gets.
i dont have a crush, what to do? so yeah.. basically i havent been interested in anyone in about a year and a half now i dont want a relationship nor do i see myself being in one and hook ups are beginning to seem like a waste of time the only thing on my mind really is marketing and making cash am i becoming a soulless business minded adult? sips americano, smokes marlboro red, waits for angsty replies
why are some guys / men so persistent for closure? okay, so usually i don't make threads about guys / men, but this is something i still am unable to figure out im genderqueer / transgender, and ive encountered quite a few guys and men who ive either gotten bored with, gotten creeps from, grown apathetic / detesting of, or all of the above, yet they have not gotten the message and continued creep on me, and i used to try really really hard to break it off as delicately, politely and respectfully as i could, but after some recent real creeps ive begun to change as a person, and now im no longer as concerned about their wellbeing, or with giving them the benefit of the doubt call me bitter and spiteful if you want, but this is something im st
If you had the choice / chance to become famous would you choose to become famous or remain an 'ordinary' person?
If you had the choice / chance to become famous would you choose to become famous or remain an 'ordinary' person?
do you remember the episode where homer got fat? when lisa's like "hey, my dad may have gained a little weight but he's not some kind of food crazed maniac" ahaha lmfao
favourite bands and artists so... what musical artists do you love? i know there's another music thread around somewhere, but hopefully this will be more of a discuss thread.. x_x i love anr, they're my favourite indie band. i stumbled upon them about 7 years back while watching jersey shore. my favourite song by them is 2k3012, but i also love dances when, dark water and digital world. highly recommend to any indie lovers, i can guarantee you'll at least be interested. favourite pop musician is easily rihanna. loved her ever since i was about 13. way too many good memories. favourite songs are shut up and drive, please don't stop the music and disturbia, but all of her music is so good, even the new stuff that pretty much every song is my
what planet are you? you ever heard that phrase "men are from mars, women are from venus?" im a rogue planet. i used to orbit a system till a saturn came passing through and sent me flying into the deepest voids of space where ive been wandering for a while. sigh.. >_>
what fictional characters do you identify with? i always see myself somewhat like raven from teen titans and shego from kim possible yeah, i know they're females, but whatever, im secure with my gender identity i also kind of see myself as somewhat brian kinney (queer as folk), a bitter lonely a-hole corporate marketer also a little bit like like gaara from naruto but not /as/ far removed from reality as he is, draco malfoy from harry potter, and slightly like anakin skywalker sometimes i feel like susanna keyson from girl interrupted, other times i can't tell if i've already gone over the edge and become more like lisa rowe
If the floodgates opened and water came pouring out
Dreams and reality If "reality" exists relational to things like fiction, fantasy, the imagination, ideation, dreams, psychosis, etc, and if what makes up reality and how reality is understood by most people can change over time, if the nature of reality can change because of a person's imagination EG: J.K.Rowling and Harry Potter, then is it possible that "reality" in a metaphysical sense is simultaneously those things too? Simultaneously in the sense that fiction is already part of reality, and fiction informs reality, and therefore fiction and reality influence eachother (or one another) reflexively, then is there some kind of exclusively existing domain of fiction and / or fantasy that has come into being, or is it and always will be a
sometimes i feel like sighing so loud that the sigh can be heard from the coldest corners of the earth and outside space despondency lonerism black bird of despair doom and gloom cries