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Came out to a couple friends Plus Other Stories [b]1[/b] So a few days ago (or something like that) I came out to a couple more friends of mine. I'm pretty sure that one of them was actually expecting that I was going to say I was gay (or something like that, due to the nature of the conversation, as well as some other stuff which I don't really need to expand on here). It went pretty excellently. One of them was either not sure exactly what I meant, or they wanted to make sure they weren't misunderstanding me or something, since they asked what exactly I meant. But it was really chill, and we talked about sexuality briefly and stuff. It was cool. [b]2[/b] I was sitting in one of my classes, waiting for the lecture to start. This girl who h

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Gender stuff through time Most people aren't really all that aware of their gender, and I don't mean that as a criticism. When you feel totally at ease with yourself (in such ways), it's really not something that there's any point in thinking about. Some questions that are of interest to me are (1) have I always been a girl? (2) if I haven't, when did I become one? (3) If I have, to what extent was I aware of it in childhood (etc)? Looking back, I can think of moments in my early childhood which make me think that I was definitely a girl at that time. But I can also think of other instances (around the same point in time) which would suggest the opposite. So I'm not sure what that really says about me / me at that time. I'm not sure if it i

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help me. I cant do social things Because of reasons, I was helping people (who I have never communicated with except for like helping them with this stuff) with some various things (communicating via the internet) and due to my help, some of these people individually offered to like buy me flowers, or take me for coffee, or whatever and I told them all it was unnecessary, because it totally was So, like, this one particular person offered to buy me coffee, and I told them it was okay BUT THEN THEY ASKED AGAIN AND THEY PHRASED IT IN LIKE A CUTE WAS AS A RHYME AND I TOLD A COUPLE FRIENDS THIS, AND THEY THINK THAT SHE IS LIKE ASKING ME ON A DATE BASIL I CANNOT DO THIS Edit: let me make this clearer. Allow me to ask a question: HOW DO I SAY &qu

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this whole gender thing is srsly starting to annoy me I guess saying that it's starting to annoy me is sort of an odd thing to say. It's been an annoyance for a long time, I suppose. But recently everything has been especially bothersome. Like, dysphoria is bad enough as a thing, but closet gets a bit claustrophobic too. And you've been using those clothes hangers to keep your shoulders high in there, and unhooking yourself seems daunting, and your scared you'll just fall on your face once you release your grip. But, even if they pull your spine straight, they still have a weight to them, and it's heavy on your back. And it's not like things will get better anytime soon--no chance, no matter what you do. But you have to start somewhere. I m

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