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Everyone around me is bustling around, full of energy and ambition.
I am sitting, tired, with no goals.
Or rather, I do have goals, but I have no motivation for them.
They take more effort than I can muster.
So I sit around all day, wasting my life, bit by bit.
Time trickles slowly by, yet rushes past.
Seconds, minutes, hours, days, they all are pointless.
I do and accomplish nothing.

YEa. Even my mom likes to tell me that. She's 98% convinced I won't make it into a good college and is beating me up trying to help me study and tour and make myself better for colleges, but I'm such a loser that I'm avoiding everything she's doing.
Idk. I wish I had motivation for things. I wish I was excellent at something, but I'm just painfully average at everything I do. (school, dance, art, socializing)
The worst part is that I'm upset with myself about all these things but I can't get myself to change.

i could be a lot better but I could also be a lot worse.

i dont think myself as a loser but i do wonder to myself the question of "what the hell i am doing with my life?" when im by myself. after the question comes to my mind, i mentally shrug it off and tell myself to keep walking forward.

No one is a loser.
Anyone who thinks that needs to stop looking down on themself so much and raise their bar of self esteem via doing things that interest them which will eventually net companions who also share that same interest.

[quote=NonSonoFronz]If you don't mind me asking, how come you fear commitment?
I'm just curious because I honestly feel more comfortable with commitment than I do not being committed to things. If that makes any sense.
So I'm just curious about the other side of it.
[/quote]

Oh I don't know man, a lot of reasons. Part of it is just flat out immaturity and wanting to just live for myself. Another part is that I sincerely enjoy flirting and talking to different girls so it feels at time as if commitment would be too suffocating and limiting. Then there's the fears of not chowing the right person and getting burned down the road. But most of all I think I'm just afraid that, knowing myself, I'd cheat easily and hurt someone I care about.

But no you're right, commitment is so much better and it def. makes you happier. I am loving the start of this semi-committed relationship and the emotional stability that comes from it. That's why it feels weird to me to still feel like I should be sleeping around when it's clearly so much better being with one person you love. It's starting to change and I'm not nearly as afraid of it as I was before.

[quote=LuckyNinja]Yes.

To be more specfic, a hollow shell of a failure.
I've just failed at so many things, that I've stopped caring. I have stopped fighting back or ignoring insults, but rather accept them as fact and let it sink in. I don't worry about any punishments or consequences that come towards me. Even my younger brother beat me up, and I still didn't fight back. (But it wasn't hard to stop him when I felt like it.)

I can't bring myself to do anything, knowing that something will go wrong and someone will cruelly call me out on it. And to tell the truth, I don't want it to be this way and I'm disappointed in myself. But honestly, I feel like I've been thrown in a deep hole, and climbing up will somehow make me fall deeper.

So to answer the question, yes, I am a loser.[/quote]

I know exactly how you feel. Its the feeling that you will do everything wrong that you try to do, I have this problem with both sports and working out, as well as anything social really. I'm also INCREDIBLY lazy, the only reason I get up is to avoid the wrath of what people will do to me if I don't. Recently I've been thinking "Why bother" and that life is pointless. I need to see psychiatrist but I have issues with telling people how I feel. I never had any friends before 6th grade, and I didn't get more than a few until 8th. I've never been in any type of relationship with a woman. Be it a girlfriend, intercourse partner, or just a friend really. All my friends are dudes, and we all sit inside and play games. There is little social interaction. I pass the time listening to music as of late, but I feel like this has made me worse, indulging myself into music made me even lazier than I already was, and with songs consistently stuck in my head my grades have been slipping, and the fact that I hate my teachers is because they yell at me for not doing homework (Which I wouldn't have done anyway) and for listening to music or something. I find myself even taking difficult academic goals at home, such as learning Classical Latin and getting started in programming, and getting that balanced with working out, school, and a planned football season. I don't think I'll get into a good college because I barely tried this past year, and as of right now my GPA isn't looking all too good.

Yes.

To be more specfic, a hollow shell of a failure.
I've just failed at so many things, that I've stopped caring. I have stopped fighting back or ignoring insults, but rather accept them as fact and let it sink in. I don't worry about any punishments or consequences that come towards me. Even my younger brother beat me up, and I still didn't fight back. (But it wasn't hard to stop him when I felt like it.)

I can't bring myself to do anything, knowing that something will go wrong and someone will cruelly call me out on it. And to tell the truth, I don't want it to be this way and I'm disappointed in myself. But honestly, I feel like I've been thrown in a deep hole, and climbing up will somehow make me fall deeper.

So to answer the question, yes, I am a loser.

im a hella loser, yeah.

most of the time, but it could have been worse.

why is it so hard to change?

[quote=PowPowHammer]Every single day of my life.[/quote]

Pretty much this.

Nah mang, too busy drinkin' tiger blood

i don't consider myself a loser, but i'm sure even a doctor who has an annual salary of $200,000 or more would at times ask themselves "wtf am i doing"
i'm in school, and that's the only standard i put myself on right now because i have a resistance to over-achievement that only the GODS can alleviate
however there are instances where i'll be out at 4am in the morning buying tacos at a 24-hour with my face red as a freakin' tomato and my system pumped full of narcotics and i'll think to myself, "wow, i'm a piece of crap"

but then again, who doesn't? that's life for ya

when comparing the experiences I have to others yes, but considering my progression as a person, then no

Occasionally
More often as of late.

[quote=WontPostMuch]All the time but not for reasons most Basilers would lol

Basically I've just lived a very unmotivated, chaotic, crazy life until recently. Some highlights of my life:
-Never been in a committed relationship due to fear of commitment
-Dont know how many people I've slept with and that makes me feel really groce
-Been arrested twice
-Friends think of me as that guy who will do something incredibly crazy and stupid/I have no restraint
-Had to withdraw from U after nearly failing all of my classes
-Failed in all my endeavors be it joining a sport or fraternity, mostly due to craziness
-Got into a drunken street fight
-Have had a troubling fondness of drugs and alcohol
-Until recently, one night stands were all I knew
-Never lived to my potential
-Squandered a personal fortune 3 years in a row
-Incapable of keeping relationships with others/ruining great friendships

And that's just a short list[/quote]
If you don't mind me asking, how come you fear commitment?
I'm just curious because I honestly feel more comfortable with commitment than I do not being committed to things. If that makes any sense.
So I'm just curious about the other side of it.

I ask myself that all the time, but not for reasons that would make me a loser.
I always wonder if what I'm doing truly makes me happy or if I'm happy just because I'm sticking to something consistent because change freaks me out.

at times yes, but then i realize that some things take time and patience.

so no i'm not a loser even though sometimes i feel like i am.

i'm proud of myself tbh

All the time but not for reasons most Basilers would lol

Basically I've just lived a very unmotivated, chaotic, crazy life until recently. Some highlights of my life:
-Never been in a committed relationship due to fear of commitment
-Dont know how many people I've slept with and that makes me feel really groce
-Been arrested twice
-Friends think of me as that guy who will do something incredibly crazy and stupid/I have no restraint
-Had to withdraw from U after nearly failing all of my classes
-Failed in all my endeavors be it joining a sport or fraternity, mostly due to craziness
-Got into a drunken street fight
-Have had a troubling fondness of drugs and alcohol
-Until recently, one night stands were all I knew
-Never lived to my potential
-Squandered a personal fortune 3 years in a row
-Incapable of keeping relationships with others/ruining great friendships

And that's just a short list

Yes.

postextenderu

Well, maybe
but I don't think that either the former or the latter implies the other

Naaaaaaaah, I enjoy what I am doing.
Playing games, doing some sports, watching anime, drinking with friends, going to school and I graduated.

I would call myself a loser if I would've failed school and only stayed at home and didn't have any friends to talk to.
But that's not the case =)

Like on a weekly basis... but I never consider myself a loser.

Every single day of my life.