Can someone tell me whats wrong with me?
I had a coffee date & it was fun. At first it was very hard for me to ask her out. First I was rejected because I didn't have my phone on me & I wasnt thinking about writing hers down. Later I saw her at the store & the conversation was very smooth. Everyone was looking at us=.
I am not a person to make myself vulnerable. Each time it turns out good though T-T. Even now I get scared of going in the spotlight. There this girl who is very cute. I want to have a more personal relationship with her.
I know it's as simple as hey ____ you don't mind if I have a seat next to you? After THAT is when my heart starts to race because I know everyone will be looking at me. Because of how cute the girl is or just because of the ballsy situation.
Even when I'm weight lifting the amount of attention I get is nerve wrecking. I can't help but be afraid. Everywhere I have ever gone. People tell me the same thing be confident.
How come I can jump off a 50 foot fall or scale off a 80 meter tower but small situation scare me so much. I can speak up against the most arrogant person but when it's a quiet cute girl I'm trembling.
What is wrong with me!?!?!?