Yeah, but this site has been dead for years tbh, so don't worry. A lot of your time has been spent without giving basil a second thought. It feels quicker because there are only a few years of basil memories: the rest blend together.
I think the same can be said for me, even more so about the game itself.
In fact, when I started playing MapleStory, I could barely communicate with others. I spoke in barely-coherent sentences and my vocabulary was quite limited.
I guess this game can either serve to show me how much I've grown, or to show me how much time I've spent on this game. I'll focus on the former, and I hope doing the same will help you cope with that existential crisis you're facing right now.