Its been awhile
I've gone through quite a bit since the start of my junior year and it's almost come to an end. At the beginning I had pretty positive ambitions of getting my grades up to get into UCLA, get closer to a friend, have fun with friends, and just try to find happier days. Through the middle it got worse as I realized that UCLA wouldn't happen even if I were to get straight A's, my friend and I grew apart, I started to feel no real connection to the friends, the search for happier days led into days of sadness and sorrow as I had no energy for anything. Nearing the end, I remember how I was so sad and tried to reflect on this. I'm still working on my grades which are getting better, my friend and I no longer have any contact and the pain is dulling each and everyday, I lost a good chunk of my "friends" but that's okay since they weren't really friends, I feel neutral and am still hoping to find better days.
I just felt like posting. Feel free to say anything or even reflect if you want.
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huh, that was just the opposite during my jr year in hs. My friends became even closer as we were competing for better grades/SAT scores.
Yep I remember junior high, I had just transferred and everyone already had their friends, so it was hard to fit in, plus I didn't try very hard,lol. Even the nerds rejected me it was that bad. So I spent most of my time in the library,shrugs, junior and senior year was the worst. But looking back I regret nothing, being in isolation for a while really strengthened my personality. So when I got into college I didn't feel scared or anything. Things happen to prepare you for the future. Sometimes you need to spend some time alone to reflect, change and renew so you can face the next day.
your mask tells a story
find something worth your time - a good hobby such as running or gaming
Friends are overrated -- just do you, my dude.
well at least you have it better than @xtripled guess that's a plus
oh and the kids in Africa, can't forget about them
Just bear through it. Junior year is pretty brutal since your about to start stabilizing but that inevitably comes with malaise and lots of self-doubt. Plus with all the college apps and just starting to realize what being an adult means, it can be intimidating. But dw about it, just stay strong and you'll be fine bro. GL
I don't know what to say
but I feel you, man