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different schools do vary a bit in how helpful their mental services are.

Anyways, professional help would be the most surefire way to get an answer as to what you should do.
I think continuing to talk to people is a good idea.

[quote=trueatheist]Those are the worst.

OT: Seek professional help, there is medication out there that can help you as well as non-medicinal treatments. Your parents don't have to know.

@blackwingblade I like how you articulated that. I myself do not believe in God but I do what people would consider "praying" from time to time, especially on those times you feel like crap.[/quote]

Yeah it's probably the worst thing I've experienced so far. Really sad

[quote=musaab1]Honestly, most of the advice/comments on this thread are pretty unhelpful but nothing was expected from basilmarket. Atleast Dorks took it seriously. You have all the signs of depression. I think you should get help even if you are scared of how you will be perceived. Alot of people view depression as some type of weakness coming from the person and that a change in attitude will negate the feelings/actions caused by depression. When in reality, it is a mental sickness. Get help. You aren't weak if you do, you are stronger than most people if you do.

Depression: The persistent feeling of sadness or loss of interest that characterizes major depression can lead to a range of emotional and physical conditions. These include inability to sleep or concentrate on tasks. Changes in appetite, decreased energy level, and thoughts of suicide are also seen.[/quote]

This is basically what I was going to tell you. The feelings you experience fit at least a mild form of depression. Seeking help would be best. This does not mean that you will be medicated or anything it just means that someone will help you understand why you feel dejected and help you figure out how to deal with it. Bottling it all up and hiding it away from your surroundings is not healthy.

EDIT: I just noticed the part where you don't want your family to know. They don't need to know. Personally I have been dealing with depression since I was 14. I am now 22 and my family is completely in the dark regarding this matter. The early years they simply didn't pay enough attention to me to realise (their focus was my brother, long story). Before anything I "got better" to some extend and I thought it was something in my past. Two years ago I started university abroad. Due to circumstances I became depressed again. Things happened and I finally got help. Being at university and being over 18 meant that I didn't have to tell anyone I didn't want to know. My parents are completely in the dark about this and they will always be. I don't think they'd be judgemental towards me, they'd just be judgemental towards themselves. I don't believe they could possibly help me so I rather leave it like this. I can understand where you're coming from though. The idea that my family might know kind of makes me panic as I really don't want to deal with them knowing such a thing about me.

[quote=zetradedd]hey me too

mine's a very very long, dragged out breakup though, so[/quote]

Those are the worst.

OT: Seek professional help, there is medication out there that can help you as well as non-medicinal treatments. Your parents don't have to know.

@blackwingblade I like how you articulated that. I myself do not believe in God but I do what people would consider "praying" from time to time, especially on those times you feel like crap.

If you choose to live your life in a manner that creates guilt you will constantly build up depression, negative energy. I'm going to recommend something that you'll probably be annoyed by hearing, something that I do everyday to eliminate a good chunk of negative energy. You might not take my word but I still hope you do. Here it is "pray to god for a good 15/20 minutes". Even if you don't really believe in anything, still pray. Lust, greed, gluttony, envy, wrath, sloth (laziness), pride. The seven deadly sins cause guilt. Guilt = depression. Your depression is literally a reflection of a lost soul. Don't live as your body, live as your soul because your body is only a shell. When you pray, pray for forgiveness, recognize god not as a visible being but as infinite righteousness in you: safety, courage, strength, confidence, certainty, healing, gratitude, forgiveness, etc. Never ever hold grudges against anyone, choose to be forgiving, giving and have gratitude. I don't know how difficult your life is but if you always feel guilty you'll get even more depressed. Even if you don't believe in god (good), he is watching you no matter what, he is the reason your soul is inside your body. He's even the reason your seeking happiness because he created you to want it. (oh and yes I believe in gods son)

I'm sure everyone hear is drawn to everything that is positive/righteous. Anything unrighteous is something that humans spirits naturally notice and dislike or try they're best to ignore.

its okay to be sad.

if you're sure your friends are going to forget you anyway, why not bother them until they do?
and when you find out how to not be bored, be sure to tell me about it
good luck, hope you find what you're looking for

Since you're over 18, I don't think you need to tell your parents about therapy.

It sounds like depression to me.
Trust me I'm a doctor.
Now take off your pants.

Also, would [the unlikely] judgement from your family really be worse than going through this depression? Go to a counselor or doctor or whatever.

join the club

me four

Honestly, most of the advice/comments on this thread are pretty unhelpful but nothing was expected from basilmarket. Atleast Dorks took it seriously. You have all the signs of depression. I think you should get help even if you are scared of how you will be perceived. Alot of people view depression as some type of weakness coming from the person and that a change in attitude will negate the feelings/actions caused by depression. When in reality, it is a mental sickness. Get help. You aren't weak if you do, you are stronger than most people if you do.

Depression: The persistent feeling of sadness or loss of interest that characterizes major depression can lead to a range of emotional and physical conditions. These include inability to sleep or concentrate on tasks. Changes in appetite, decreased energy level, and thoughts of suicide are also seen.

ya me too

Cling to your friends. If they really are your friends they will always remember you and will always look out for you no matter how far apart or how long you guys haven't talked to each other.

depression? more like binge watch a whole series and ignore all feelings.
Oh Eric Foreman, how did you land Donna?

yeah i started being depressed around high school too but by the time i got help i wouldn't say it was late but in a way it was
if it makes you feel any better, you don't actually need to have a reason to feel the way you do. on some days when i walked in to see my therpist, i told her i felt stupid for being there bc i felt like i didn't have real problems but at the same time i felt like poop
you're also not required to tell your friends and family if you're afraid of being judged. i've let it known to friends and save maybe 2 or 3 people, i've gotten overwhelming support.
sorry for inserting myself into this idk i got a lot of help from seeing a professional and it doesn't hurt to try esp if your school has those resources.

The problem is that last sentence, why would you allow them to go on with better things in their lives. Don't you wish to be apart of that, or maybe not even apart of it, but have better things in your life as well. Trust me I've felt the same way, you constantly feel like a burden on others, you're constantly down, and just so dragged. The only way to change it is you, all you will find in your friends is advice but the choice is all yours, whether to break out of this routine or let it stay by your side. I know by me typing this it makes it seem like I think it's easy but I really know it's not.

That's the most dumbest thing I ever heard.

hey me too

mine's a very very long, dragged out breakup though, so

same