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So pretty much Im just a 16 year old kid that will soon by 17 by next month and I am currently being treated for Clinical Depression. I went missing from school for half a year while I was in grade 11 so I ended up having to take the year over again right now (Should be in my final year of high school with my friends). While missing for the half year, rumors spread about me committing suicide (like jumping off a highway overpass) and what could be the cause of my depression (Family, society, drama, etc), but also jokes and insults came with these rumors. So other peers and such would come up to me and say they were depressed or some crap and that they are down and would mock the state I am in. One person came up to me just to say "Oh, you're alive? And at school? Thats new. And also teenagers would say that they are depressed or so even though they aren't and that it is most likely just a negative moment or such. I know most people would tell me to just ignore what they say and such but when you hear it everyday about jumping off a highway overpass or some crap, it breaks you down sooner or later.

I just find it pretty annoying that people are willing to act that immature to others and make up such nonsense and also to that extent. And I'm sadly posting this up on Basil but I guess I wanted to see how people would view the situation and such because even Adults involved in my situation can be quite immature as well...

I got to know how people felt and what their opinions are in the situation I guess. I have to stay strong and remember whats important to make it past this obstacle, or I am just going to end being back where I started and would have lost all this progress. Thanks to everyone that had something meaningful to say or just to try and help a teenager out like me. Funny thing in the end is that, if I do make it through all this, I want to be a psychologist to help with others that have trouble dealing with problems because I believe everyone has a future that deserves to be positive and bright

September 11, 2011

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rycudaEX

@MaskedForLife: Hopefully I'll have the motivation to get out of it, thanks for telling me that. It helps to know other people's stories as well

Reply September 12, 2011
makidua

Rave with me
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5vbUSi6AOwY

Reply September 12, 2011
rycudaEX

@Lmafroggy: Thanks for the support, hopefully things will get better and such. Losing a life is pretty hard and selfish, because you are also ruining other peoples lives when you take your own

Reply September 12, 2011
Lmafroggy

[quote=rycudaEX]@Lmafroggy: Oh, I didnt edit my post to say that I had Clinical Depression because I thought people would actually take it seriously as in the mental illness but I guess the word "Depression" is generalized too much to a majority of people.

I have clinical Depression and I have went to 3 different psychologists, 2 different general Doctors from different clinics and will soon be seeing a Psychiatrist to check on mediciations and such. I should add that into my original post[/quote]

Oh sorry bout that. I didn't know you were actually depressed. That word gets thrown around so many times it kind of lost it's meaning...
But that IS a problem then. But i'm glad you haven't taken your life or anything because it's showing that you're stronger than that and you CAN get yourself from a tough situation.

Reply September 11, 2011
rycudaEX

@Lmafroggy: Oh, I didnt edit my post to say that I had Clinical Depression because I thought people would actually take it seriously as in the mental illness but I guess the word "Depression" is generalized too much to a majority of people.

I have clinical Depression and I have went to 3 different psychologists, 2 different general Doctors from different clinics and will soon be seeing a Psychiatrist to check on mediciations and such. I should add that into my original post

Reply September 11, 2011 - edited
Alleexx

[quote=adderall]Listen man, I did not even read your post beyond a skim because the solution for every problem in life is the same. CHANGE IT OR IGNORE IT. You aren't going to get a second chance at anything and nothing will change unless you change it yourself. People will continually insult you unless you take the steps required to prevent that. If you need some serious advice on a specific subject please, please ask. I have more experience with these sort of emotional issues than you would ever imagine. If you are seeking mood stability and general life enhancement, I highly suggest you begin taking St. Johns Wort and DMAE, both natural remedies clinically proven to treat depression. Aside from that, please list the problems you are having troubles solving, I will gladly help you with them. Being depressed is NOT WORTH IT. You CAN be happy and you need no one but yourself to achieve ultimate happiness. You CAN get up one morning and turn your life around 180 degrees. It IS that easy. I have done it and I have seen it done many times. Every accomplishment begins with the will power to try.[/quote]

man i love all your posts lol.

Reply September 11, 2011 - edited
Lmafroggy

[quote=Ralinda4]Depression is a medical condition, it's not something you can quickly fix or ignore. Otherwise it was reasonably good advice, I guess.[/quote]

That's the thing we don't really know if he's ACTUALLY depressed or just feeling morose.
Because I know someone who says she's depressed and whines ALL the time about everything... But isn't depressed. -____-;

Reply September 11, 2011 - edited
Lmafroggy

[quote=rycudaEX]So pretty much Im just a 16 year old kid that will soon by 17 by next month and I am currently being treated for Depression. I went missing from school for half a year while I was in grade 11 so I ended up having to take the year over again right now (Should be in my final year of high school with my friends). While missing for the half year, rumors spread about me committing suicide (like jumping off a highway overpass) and what could be the cause of my depression (Family, society, drama, etc), but also jokes and insults came with these rumors. So other peers and such would come up to me and say they were depressed or some crap and that they are down and would mock the state I am in. One person came up to me just to say "Oh, you're alive? And at school? Thats new. And also teenagers would say that they are depressed or so even though they aren't and that it is most likely just a negative moment or such. I know most people would tell me to just ignore what they say and such but when you hear it everyday about jumping off a highway overpass or some crap, it breaks you down sooner or later.

I just find it pretty annoying that people are willing to act that immature to others and make up such nonsense and also to that extent. And I'm sadly posting this up on Basil but I guess I wanted to see how people would view the situation and such because even Adults involved in my situation can be quite immature as well...

I got to know how people felt and what their opinions are in the situation I guess. I have to stay strong and remember whats important to make it past this obstacle, or I am just going to end being back where I started and would have lost all this progress. Thanks to everyone that had something meaningful to say or just to try and help a teenager out like me. Funny thing in the end is that, if I do make it through all this, I want to be a psychologist to help with others that have trouble dealing with problems because I believe everyone has a future that deserves to be positive and bright[/quote]

So because teenagers are being stupid you get depressed? Makes sense. >.<
Honestly you needa man up in a way... I've gone through crap too and honestly I always looked at the bright side and i still smiled and joked around.
I'm honest and nice but when someone doesn't really help themselves I don't see why I should
Inform a teach if they're getting annoying or something geez. We have them there for more reasons than just to teach!

Reply September 11, 2011 - edited
rycudaEX

I'm off to bed now seeing how its pretty late now. Will leave this open if anyone wants to post anything else and I will try to respond when I have the time to do so. Thank you everyone!

Reply September 11, 2011 - edited
shikachibi

@rycudaEX: I enjoyed the book, but it's all about depression, annoyance, and alienation. It's a good read and I really suggest it (:

Reply September 11, 2011 - edited
rycudaEX

@evonexus: I broke up with her about 4 months ago, dont really want to bother her now as its now her final year of high school and I dont want cause trouble for her

@shikachibi: I have heard of that book, maybe I will pick it up one day and see how it goes

Reply September 11, 2011 - edited
shikachibi

Read Catcher in the Rye, fits your title perfectly.

Reply September 11, 2011 - edited
rycudaEX

@DirtMcGirt: Yeah, I see what your saying, your life is sculpted by your own actions, so you make yourself happy because you believe you should be happy. Part of my depression is my own fault since my mindset is about wanting to know what others feel as it is important to know that they are still people as well, but I guess I put their own opinions and thoughts before my own. Thanks for helping me out with that

@Ralinda4: Yeah, I have attempted suicide a few times in the past few years, but funny thing is that I have like a list of people I want happy or such before I die (Sounds very hypocritical o.o) but also if you are to die for your own causes, people will never know the answer and just believe in negative thoughts, like family would think its their fault, or other reasons and such. The Story doesnt really end after you die, as people will have to deal with you after the actions you have taken.

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DirtMcGirt

[quote=rycudaEX]@DirtMcGirt: Can only control so much and also have the freedom to do whatever you want as well while not screwing things up. I can also blame myself for being a pessimist but generally outside sources will influence your life a lot (Nature VS Nurture)[/quote]

I disagree. If life isn't going the way I would like it too, I would be the one to make the change, not wait for all the people around me to change. Your happiness is no ones responsibility but your own.

Reply September 11, 2011 - edited
rycudaEX

@Demonlord: I see your point in this, but what people dont know also scares them. To think over things leads to more questions that need answers but these answers just cant seemed to be reached on your own, thats why seeking help can benefit others. Thats why I posted here, looking for peoples advice and opinions on how they think another persons life is. I appreciate your answer though, I see how you approached this and yes, things could have been worse and depends on how I feel about it as well

@evonexus: haha, I plan on learning the acoustic guitar on my own because I have time to I guess and the interest just came upon me

@codytoad1: Yeah, things should work that way but apparently my depression is a hot topic..

@KeybIaderAri: Yeah, my bad. I meant to say Clinical Depression but I guess I was targeting this to a more general audience of people on basil so I didnt want to be so formal

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KeybIaderAri

[quote=Demonlord]"I am currently being treated for Depression."
What? You can be treated for emotions? How does someone end up in a state of depression anyways? Weak minded? Pft.

A highschool that expects me to be dead for some reason - Guessing you can't take a joke? And your fault for being out of school for . . . half a year? Where the heck were you, did you run away?

A harsh asian family that expects results almost instantaneous while treating me like im garbage and "perfectly fine" (Even though its been at least 4 years or so) - Guessing you believe what they tell you, otherwise you wouldn't be in this situation. People like you really irritate me, you complain about others putting you down, but you let them.

To babysit a brother that is currently 22 or so with ADHD for the rest of my life - Holdon, if your parents treats you like garbage, they still gave you the task of looking over your brother?

A stalkerish Ex Girlfriend - "Ex Girlfriend", dude I don't have a single female friend, and you're complaining about a stalkerish Ex Girlfriend? I'm sorry, but does that mean I should be depressed too?

Mentors and Teachers believing that I have potential (Not "Sweet Talk" Apparently) but I fail to reach their expected goals for them - So, what's the problem here? Same thing with you believing what other say? No really, I don't see a problem here, you just don't like yourself or something?

"Yeah.. One problem I have found common in teenagers is their ability to think in a logical and positive way, but instead it seems like they just want to kick you while you are down whenever they can get the chance", I see no logical thought in anything you have said So, you're basically a common teenager, meaning most of the problems you mentioned are just . . .common, oh god and you're in depression because of this?

If you wanted to feel better, go think things over instead of looking for help. Do what you can yourself first, before replying on others.[/quote]
I'm guessing he's talking about clinical depression, not just being depressed for a few days.

Reply September 11, 2011 - edited
codytoad1

the thing with High School kids, is if you show them it doesn't bother you, or you just ignore it, they'll eventually stop...I noticed this in High School myself lol

Reply September 11, 2011 - edited
rycudaEX

@DirtMcGirt: Can only control so much and also have the freedom to do whatever you want as well while not screwing things up. I can also blame myself for being a pessimist but generally outside sources will influence your life a lot (Nature VS Nurture)

Reply September 11, 2011 - edited
rycudaEX

@evonexus: Cant always forget everything that happens (maybe vague things like people insulting you time to time) but having depression is also experience in your life that may be important later in life as you will know how to cope and deal with it. I also am pretty much care free but im finding that quite a problem now so now I try to find responsibilities so I know if I actually am doing something right or wrong, also I've had 4 girlfriends (Can figure out the rest yourself ). Dont drink Coffee, like tea more and also good Guy friends im with tend to not like to talk about these kind of things or Just dont know how to approach it or talk about it (Girls tend to do better )

@Tamgorine: Pretty much doing what you just said haha but enduring it also wont get me anywhere, also have to try and get out of it or else I would be stuck

@KeybIaderAri: Yeah, also most teenagers dont really believe in consequences or dont know what they are in realistic terms

Talking to everyone here is making me feel better, thanks a lot

Reply September 11, 2011 - edited
DirtMcGirt

[quote=rycudaEX]
@clearwaterxo: @DirtMcGirt: Thats what im trying to do now, make the future better but feels like most people are against me while acknowledging it or not even knowing that they could be doing something wrong.[/quote]

That's kind of what I'm trying to say. Stop looking to other people for inspiration on something that should come from within. Take control of your own life and don't blame other people for how you feel.

Reply September 11, 2011 - edited
partyanimal

Eh I really did start off feeling bad, but now I see it's just your run of the mill problems that normal people deal with every day. Get a grip, take control, good luck.

Reply September 11, 2011 - edited
KeybIaderAri

[quote=rycudaEX]@KeybIaderAri: Yeah.. One problem I have found common in teenagers is their ability to think in a logical and positive way, but instead it seems like they just want to kick you while you are down whenever they can get the chance

@clearwaterxo: @DirtMcGirt: Thats what im trying to do now, make the future better but feels like most people are against me while acknowledging it or not even knowing that they could be doing something wrong.[/quote]
It really is a problem. The only reason for them doing that though is that they just don't understand what people "we" have to go though. It's really hard for me to think positively when so many people act like they are completely against the idea that I deserve to be happy. It's hurtful. It makes me think of that one saying "Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me." People kept telling me this, but they [i]CAN[/i] hurt someone, especially when it has to do with something like this.

Reply September 11, 2011 - edited
RedWings

what about me?
[quote=NotKelly]you need to be my new bffl
it will fix everything ok i promise[/quote]

Reply September 11, 2011 - edited
rycudaEX

@adderall:

Here's a main list, wont bother with small stuff. List includes present day problems and also problems I will have to deal with in the future

A highschool that expects me to be dead for some reason
A harsh asian family that expects results almost instantaneous while treating me like im garbage and "perfectly fine" (Even though its been at least 4 years or so)
To babysit a brother that is currently 22 or so with ADHD for the rest of my life
A stalkerish Ex Girlfriend
Mentors and Teachers believing that I have potential (Not "Sweet Talk" Apparently) but I fail to reach their expected goals for them

So to have the ideology of Change it or Ignore it may work in some cases such as ignoring a stalker Ex, but this will not work when you have to live with a family until you reach the age of 22 at least (Finishing a undergrad in most universities or such) and also I cant ignore my brother that is in need of help because of his mental disabilities.

If you are willing to prove a "Solid" example of using Change it or Ignore it for each Point, then I likely will read it over carefully (Sorry if my wording seems like I am very against you)

@KeybIaderAri: Yeah.. One problem I have found common in teenagers is their ability to think in a logical and positive way, but instead it seems like they just want to kick you while you are down whenever they can get the chance

@clearwaterxo: @DirtMcGirt: Thats what im trying to do now, make the future better but feels like most people are against me while acknowledging it or not even knowing that they could be doing something wrong.

@ravencurse: Yeah, I am currently on Meds (Apparently the best that can be prescribed, not going to bother posting the name of it) and also I go to a psychologist to pretty much talk about the same things I am talking about to everyone posting here, it helps I guess but I still havent really found something to look forward to in the future to actually make me really motivated to push myself out of my depression

Reply September 11, 2011 - edited
TheWolf

We are the Future

Reply September 11, 2011 - edited
NoCookieForYou

Most of society doesn't understand what it's like going through it /: It's kind of one of the things you have to go through to truly understand. There are some people that do understand though. Just keep moving and one day everything will get better.

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DirtMcGirt

take control of your own life

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KeybIaderAri

Don't worry, when I had to leave school for a while because I was dealing with personal stuff and depression, people started rumors about me killing myself too.

People were saying the same stupid, lame, insensitive jokes to me. Especially since these girls were telling me to go kill myself earlier that year before leaving. They were all like, "I thought you committed suicide already. You're taking up precious space," when I came back.

I admit it's hard to brush it off when so many people are saying it to you, sometimes I even feel like crying, but I try not to let it break me down as often. Even if I cry once and a while (not in front of them) you need someone to talk to. A close friend, a therapist, anyone. But you need someone. Don't cut your self off from people. That's NEVER good.

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rycudaEX

[quote=KingHippo3]well think about it what would be more intersting, a kid from your school jumps off of bridge or a kid leaves school for few months to take a break? dont take what they say personally just brush it off like nothin[/quote]

But it's also like what I said, I dont have like a Will of Steel and just keep telling those people off. It gets to me at times and it brings me down and such.

Reply September 11, 2011 - edited
rycudaEX

[quote=KingHippo3]@CrayonScribble: y dont u explain it to me then[/quote]

mm, I guess you could say that I am more annoyed of them jumping to conclusions that would be so tragic and such. Society tends to like and favor reading and knowing of negatives and positives tend to be hidden well

@adderall:

It's more of a mix of things to fix or change (Including myself) and its been years and not much has changed. Also, I checked your thread and Nujabes is awesome, he's always living to me through his music

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CrayonScribble

[quote=KingHippo3]i dont get it ur just mad because people think you killed urself
just tell em[/quote]

You don't get it because you have the emotional capacity of a peanut.

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