The perils of Pavchka
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I've been AWOL for quite some time and feel you deserve an explanation. If you don't care that's fine too, just make sure you don't read this thread, cause I've always been unable to keep it short for some reason... (blame the darn word limits I had to meet in University T_T).
Between May 2009 and September 2013 I've been living with and taking care of my grandmother. She's a bad case of Alzheimer's and I moved in with her because she wasn't able to live alone any more. She forgot to eat and drink and didn't wash herself ("Hi grandm- PEE-YOOW!" ) and just didn't care for anything in general. It was doable for four years until she fell and broke her pelvis and tailbone. That happened in late June, which marks the first time I mysteriously disappeared from Basil. My family went on vacation shortly after she fell, so I spent one month locked up inside (I literally couldn't leave the house; she needed assistance with everything including going to the toilet) while she lamented her faith and used me as her punching bag - at some point her main means of communication involved the light objects she flung at me. Those were of course less than ideal Basiling circumstances.
In September things appeared to be looking up, even though the fall had seriously damaged her mind, but just when I started to relax she fell down the stairs in front of my very nose and broke her back. She was brought to hospital (one ambulance and two fire trucks were required) and it quickly became evident that she'd never be able to return home. So, my family thought, while she's in a nursing home she won't be needing her house anymore, so let's sell it. Oh crap, our niece/daughter is still living in it. Uh, no offense, but we can't use you here, get out, or if you can't get out immediately, pay up.
So yeah, I busted my hiney off for over 4 years [i]free of charge[/i] and as soon as my grandma was moved out, some members of my family, including my own parents, suddenly expected me to pay rent, because they no longer needed my services. Needless to say that came across as a huge slap in the face and it pretty much felt as though my family'd been taking advantage of me all those years. If you sense some bitterness on my behalf you're not sensing wrong. I understand where my parents are coming from, but some of my relatives only think in terms of Euro-signs and consider me a liability.
Starting with September my life's been so stressful that I haven't had much time for Basil and if I had been on Basil, I would have had so much trouble focussing that I'd have messed up. Don't get me wrong, I'm not the kind of person who takes her anger out on other people. Nothing stacks like frustration and guilt. I'm not usually the kind of person who's upset by hostile or aggressive comments by others either, but back in October I didn't react to them well ("WAAAAAAAAAAAH YOU'RE MEAAAAAAAAAN!" so I thought it'd be best to pull back for a time. I asked MrBasil to temporarily demod me. I have OCD, you know, so when I see something that breaks the rules I'm compelled to take care of it. In fact it's so bad that even after I lost the ability to suspend, MrBasil had to shoo me out of a mod chat which I abused to forward some serious violations. XD
Anyway, stuff's not looking up [i]yet[/i], although I'm not as stressed out as I used to be, because I have to finish an MA thesis, perform my job at PostNL (I'm a postal worker), perform my job as an English exam trainer (I average about 750 Euros per month with these two jobs), find a new place to live, buy furniture, maintain the house I currently live in and scram as soon as a potential buyer for that house shows up. My parents have also added "find a job at educational level, find more students and become an Independent Entrepreneur Without Personnel*" to my list and they want me to do all this at the same time. @_@ No way! I can do only so many things at the same time!
So that's what's been going on. I didn't think it'd be wise to be Basiling with so much stuff going on. I wouldn't have made a good moderator under these circumstances. I'll be making a slow return (vacations are coming up so I'll have a little more time), but I'm not going to be all gung-ho about it. I don't even know what's been happening in MapleStory lately. o.o
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I'm slowly but certainly being kicked out the house I used to live in and which belonged to my grandmother. I used to take care of her (she has Alzheimer's), but stuff got too hot to handle for both of us - she had to be moved to a nursing home and since the house is no longer necessary, my family's booting me out so they can sell it. I need to find a new place to live because my parents don't want me back and I to be honest don't want to go back either. Due to these circumstances I've been experiencing so much stress that I didn't think it'd be a good idea to let me roam the forums with a banhammer in hand. I temporarily handed it back to MrB and though I have it back now, I'm not planning on using it much for the time being.