Stay or Forget Her Part 2
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@Blurrish: @DuhAndrew: @m4g1cl3ss: @PhailAuction: @Overrider: @duyloco444:
PART 2
So after picking up my Report Card for my class (Was the only grade 10 student in a Grade 12 Enriched Accounting Class, got 80+ mark too ), I decided to head back home (M planned out a summer school finish sushi lunch on the day of report cards and planned it out the week before report cards, she invited all her friends, except me...) seeing as I had no plans until my friend from last years summer school calls me up. He asks me if I wanna go out for sushi on that day (What a coincidence huh, even im not that stupid I think) and I felt that something was wrong, so I decided to ask him. "Why are you calling me? Shouldnt it be M calling me? Shes the one planning it". Right after that I stupid yelling on my cellphone raging cause I was so freakin mad at what she was doing to me without noticing. Right after ending the call with my friend, I text to M that I was breaking up with her and that she can go have her happy ending ending with some other guy that was probably way better than me. A week passes with no talking or communication between her and me until she calls me one day, while crying she said she felt horrible of what she did and such (I was still pretty mad, what was done was done.) and that she was apologizing to me. I didnt really care about what she said to me, the only question I had on mind was. Why did you let all those boys hit on you right in front of me? Did you care how I felt? Am I even considered your boyfriend?. So I asked her. Why did you let them do all that? She couldnt give me an answer. She was silent. Nothing came to her mind. She just said. "I don't Know.". I just hung up.
After another week goes by. She calls me and tells me to go to the park at this time. I end up doing so, thinking that she would actually have something good or important to say. She ends up going up to me and saying how she loves me so much and that she wants to be with me forever and ever (The stuff you think the girl of your dreams would say to you in a really mushy moment). I tell her the same things through a fake tone (What can I say? after that month of garbage, I dont know whether to trust her at all or not), I still asked her why she would let those guys do such a thing and she still said she didnt know why but it made her tear up and I knew I shouldnt really press on that matter anymore (Things happen and people screw up). You are all likely reading this and like thinking, "wtf? why did you do that? You're forgiving her after all that?". I guess I really had good faith in her because I should be trusting her the same way she did with me. (She survived half a year without seeing me or talking to me, why couldnt I do it?).
I ended up being with her AGAIN (Now people are gonna hate >_>') and things were going smoothly after that drama, she and I actually ended up getting closer after that dispute and we felt that we could never be torn apart ever again. Like what my friend said to me before. "Problems are like obstacles, they are there to try and break you and your partner apart, but if you can make it past the obstacle, you two will become stronger together". So in the end, she and I became lovers (we were madly in love with each other and never wanted to be away from one and the other) and we did "things" together (Have to keep it PG, skipping to the next thing ). But in the end, the strong bond she and I had together was slowly starting to break mainly to me. I had clinical depression for the whole time of this 2 year story and I was getting worse and worse. It was pretty frustrating for her and me, I always felt so down and such but was always trying to care for M but M would always try to cheer me up and make me feel better but I was too down to be able to. So she would end up almost being in tears because she couldnt do her part to help me and im mad at myself because I couldnt keep the most important person in my life happy.. In the end she and I separated but promised (Haters are gonna hate me...) that we would be together again (If it ever does happen again) when I get better (I am slowly) and when she graduates from highschool (final year for her). So I havent talked to her for a month now because I'm scared to end up causing drama to her and ruining her final year of highschool and such.
So the story continues, but it ends here as a cliffhanger....
Can hate me if you want, I apologize about a lot of things I did wrong.
Also, the opinions of my real life friends to you guys is pretty similar, they say I shouldve left M since the 1st separation and that I shouldve moved on and that she acts very... "Open"
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[quote=Humanmango]While you're sitting around here moping, she's all sorts of things with all sorts of other guys behind your back.
If you knew what she had been up to... ohohohoho.
Better start getting used to NTR.[/quote]
lol... Hopefully things arent like that and even if things did go NTR, I would just speak up to her and just leave her if she were like that.
@SnowShadow: Well I always want to support the one I love the most, and after doing so she has done a lot of amazing things after always motivating her and making her always positive and such (like she's one of the managers for a festival that happens in my city once a year and shes pretty young to be doing that kinda stuff). So I get to see her happy and such and it feels good inside to see her be that great and that I get to be with someone so great . I had a lot of faith in her because shes really open about her feelings and honest but also she is really stubborn and whenever I lose faith, she never wants to let go of me when things go rough. (Details details, I never got to write them or else this likely be 3-4 parts long )
@evonexus: When I was planning on writing this, I planned on writing a disclaimer at the beginning of part 1 that this is true because I didnt really want trolls and such coming in being annoying but meh. And also if I was trying to troll, this wouldve turned out a lot more different. So yeah, this story is about my relationship and friendship with a girl I met 2 years ago and the story still hasnt ended yet since this day (Still on going)
@Overrider: Well things can either go two ways pretty much, she forgets about me and goes on with life or she stays stubborn and wants to be with me. Its been about a month since I talked to her and not sure how that will turn out and such. But after going through 2 years of drama and such, some parts of yourself just want it to end and break it so you wont have to endure it anymore
Dang you sure had a rough relationship. Might as well sit back and enjoy the ride with this one. I support you man, I was in your shoes one time before and it can be difficult as hell. If it does end, atleast end it with a bang. Best of luck to you bro
Hmm..Makes me think about my own relationship
Dont worry bro....i support what you did, your much more forgiving then me XD
I feel your emotions through that.....amazing story
[quote=PhailAuction]Yeah, that's why I said give it another shot. Live life with no regrets. I know you have depression and all. Try you're best. You aren't the only one who's been or is going through this kind of stuff. Hopefully everything works out well [/quote]
Thanks man, hopefully it will turn out all right. I also hope this was a good read for you!
@luffyrubber:
Its exciting for both people to see what will happen next, and quite a few people seem to be interested in what I write but I wont be doing storybook storytelling haha
@ILikeCheez:
Well I cant write more until something is done haha, and Im no good at creative writing, all my writing and such like Short Stories and Poetry is pretty much based on my experiences in life
@PhailAuction:
I hope for things to turn out like a happy ending and i be with her and such, but life aint like a fairy tale so will just have to wait and see
@m4g1cl3ss:
yeah of course but you always want to make things better and better, will just have to see in the future how things turn out
Dont worry about it too much.
If you worry things will go bad, your actions will reflect that making your experiences the same. Then you start to realize it is becoming true and you will expect more. It will be like a continuing cycle downwards.
But, that doesn't mean it cant go vice versa ;D
Edit* dont know if im clear by ^^^^ i mean if you think positive, it will get better x]
[quote=luffyrubber]Not knowing what happens is the best! If you do know what happens, you'll probably come up with a game plan, but if you don't, you'll have to improvise and wing it and I don't know about you, but when I improvise, I find myself being stupid and charming at the same time haha [/quote]
Its boring to know what happens next, but its also a surprise for both people as well, im just wondering how this will turn out now though lol
[quote=rycudaEX]yeah, thats what im planning or well trying to do right now. And see how it goes. The only problem about this romance is that I will never know what happens next xD[/quote]
Not knowing what happens is the best! If you do know what happens, you'll probably come up with a game plan, but if you don't, you'll have to improvise and wing it and I don't know about you, but when I improvise, I find myself being stupid and charming at the same time haha
[quote=luffyrubber]Yeah, I'm also waiting D: My bestfriend is in a relationship and I know a for a fact that she digs me so I'm waiting till she breaks up with him. Anyways, just wait and spend time away from her for a bit and do your own thing and see if you still have the same feelings for her then.[/quote]
yeah, thats what im planning or well trying to do right now. And see how it goes. The only problem about this romance is that I will never know what happens next xD
[quote=rycudaEX]I really dont know what I want now haha. Like what you said is true though, she and I are in pretty deep now (Like want to get married and live forever kinda thing) but im not sure how she feels Now about all this and im like minding my own business waiting and such (And posting here my story). Also Im a sucker for Romances, but it hurts to read or watch them cause I live one [/quote]
Yeah, I'm also waiting D: My bestfriend is in a relationship and I know a for a fact that she digs me so I'm waiting till she breaks up with him. Anyways, just wait and spend time away from her for a bit and do your own thing and see if you still have the same feelings for her then.
[quote=luffyrubber]That was a good read bro. I'm a sucker for relationship stories, no joke. Anyways, you're pretty deep in already. To pull out would be insanely difficult since you have a ton of feelings for her and vice versa. What's important is, what do you want?[/quote]
I really dont know what I want now haha. Like what you said is true though, she and I are in pretty deep now (Like want to get married and live forever kinda thing) but im not sure how she feels Now about all this and im like minding my own business waiting and such (And posting here my story). Also Im a sucker for Romances, but it hurts to read or watch them cause I live one
That was a good read bro. I'm a sucker for relationship stories, no joke. Anyways, you're pretty deep in already. To pull out would be insanely difficult since you have a ton of feelings for her and vice versa. What's important is, what do you want?
[quote=Whami]@rycudaEX: in that case I'd say just let it unfold naturally.
And of course, ground your expectations :c[/quote]
My expectations arent great, as long as the girl loves me for who I am, Im fine . But somehow things turn out like an anime or drama and I somehow always get the cute/pretty/smart/etc girl that everyone wants =_= (M had 1 stalker which was the guy in part 1 that was threatening her, and like the group of guys crushing on her in summer school and a few other guys my friends told me about) >_>'
[quote=IHasSteelyz]She's just a small fish in a big ocean
Now go find yourself a barracuda [/quote]
lol will see how it turns out, either I wait for this tiny fish I love or I go and find another one to try and catch
@Magic187: Yeah I know what you're saying and the whole cycle thing is how I feel about my whole life, like it doesnt just happen with relationships but with depression and other stuff. Thats why you got to change it to and stop the cycle but its harder with a relationship cause both people involved need to change, cant fix it with only one person trying their hardest
She's just a small fish in a big ocean
Now go find yourself a barracuda
@m4g1cl3ss: Hopefully things turn out ok, but im like 50/50 right now whether or not to stay or leave. Like people keep saying the whole "There are more fish in the Ocean" thing, but like you wont always get the opportunity and the same feelings I guess. I should also post the opinions of my friends too, pretty much everyone is thinking similar lol
@Magic187: Thats why Im thinking of leaving her, and yeah. When she starts missing me a lot, she will start calling/texting/msning me a lot, but it hasnt happened yet so iunno. But I dont always expect a happy ending either
@Whami: Clinical Depression as in go to see a psychologist and is suicidal lol, and yeah. Everyone says you will meet someone else thats better and so.
@rycudaEX: Similar story to what I'm experiencing (with some changes here and there). I say stick to it. Though she may do those things to you, she still loves you. Just more and more trials waiting for you along the way. Besides, if you really did leave her. Would you really be able to forget her? Seems like you keep coming back to her. So, g'luck to you both ;] hope things work out for the better.