Are things just going to fall apart agai
So im going on a date tonight apparently and I can't even focus cause i just got out of the worst part of my life and suddenly the worry is starting to kick in, what if I just mess things up, etc. Also there's this huge uncertainty about my future, where am I going, what the hell am I doing with my life, what if I don't become who I want to be, etc.
What if things just don't turn out well? What if they try and come back for me? What if I can't control myself and I end up just getting into drugs again and OD on my medication?
It just gets too difficult sometimes and I don't even have a clue what I'm doing or thinking.
What if I make a really big mistake? What if I just can't chill out and end up turning into someone who I'm not and end up pushing everyone away? What if I just spiral for the rest of my life?
Things are just not sinking in or sticking. I find the smallest most trivial things frightening, and the only thing that continues to dawn on me again and again are visions of myself doing something really stupid.
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@bleute: hehe
@bleute: did that on my last date, got laid 10/10 would do again
I never dated anyone before but I have an idea of how it's done, so I can help you. The first and most important thing you need to know is that you should take the person you're dating to a fancy, high-end restaurant such as McDonald's. Make sure you dress nice, and wear the most fancy robes you have. Pick a seat by the window so that the light of the moon and stars shines closely, and bring a coloured candle (scarlet or violet will do) to the ceremony, set it up on the middle of the table, light it, order fish fillets, and after the fish fillets are served, blow the candle out, close your eyes, and say to the other person that your prime desire in this life is to make love to them. Open your eyes, then enjoy your fish fillets.
People sweat too much on dates. Just have fun or else it'll come off forced and rather uncomfortable for the other party.
Like @readers said, this is definitely a talk to someone in real life conversion. Very few people here have had a real drug addiction.
With just the info on this post, I'd agree with @fradddd and say you may want to consider not being in a relationship until issues are solved. It'll add more stress to your life, which it sounds like you really don't need, and it may not be fair to the other person.
@fradddd: I live under a rock sorry. Please teach me more about the harsh truths in life.
@upcomingnerd so if someone has a drug problem or mental issues that have a huge negative effect on them you think it's a good idea for someone else to be dragged into it?
Have you never heard of how confusing and frightening it can get for someone when their partner threatens to kill themselves if they break up? Because that crap happens.
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@fradddd: What a load of bs. Everyone has problems in life. Hell 99% of life is a problem, it's that 1% of having a good time that makes it all worth it.
@bearsandlions You sound like you have anxiety and depression (very similar to my mom). Maybe you should seek professional help at this point. I myself had anxiety as a child but eventually I 'grew' out of it as life gave me no other option. In the end though, it's like life in the dark. While things may seem scary and uncertain, once you flip the lights on you realize there really was never anything to fear. Late for work, but good luck.
@fradddd: why
People told me that if you have a ton of unsolved problems on your own you're in no condition to date somebody.
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@juniororeos: Lol thanks.
The world has a lot of problems, so I like to try and make it less problematic than it already is.
@readers: you seriously need to be like a teacher or a motivational speaker, idk maybe its just me, but the way you word things makes everything seem less problematic ._.
Most people will have those worries at some point.
If you're worried, in that case just do things.
You have interests. In that case you start with those and see how pursuing those interests will help you. If you don't have any interests, try things that would look "interesting" to try and go from there.
You also are frightened of some things, which I would advise you to maybe speak to someone about? I will say though, that if you set on yourself a path of being a doer, of doing things that interest you (so long as they do not impede your vision of yourself), there is no need to worry about whether or not you won't become the person you want to be... or if you will push others away and etc. In fact, others will come to you.