Have you ever thought about it?
Have you ever thought about suicide? If so what reasons do you have behind your thoughts?
Me: I've thought about it over and over but never had the guts to do it. Some times i dont think ill have a future and just become unsuccesful in life or i think its my fault for my father leaving my mom and how if i wasn't born they may still be together. After awhile of this i imagine my life with a very special girl and having a familyl and just start disagreeing with all my other thoughts. I know im not bipolar, as far as i know, and i dont think i have depression. Guess these thoughts just come and go randomly but as far as i know they make me upset but im to scared to tell any ome besides the internet.
Love to hear your story on why you have thought of suicide
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@AugustRain: LOL sorry babe but I got too much on my plate to even worry about suicide. However there are people who are very close-minded and well stupid when it comes to this subject that they will say whatever comes out of their fingertips without thinking.
with the wind in my face, i jump off cliff into waves crashing against the rocky shore below now. bye.
[quote=Zoneflare4]Does this thread really need to exist?[/quote]
too triggering for u, baby?
Does this thread really need to exist?
I've thought about it, even though I have a girlfriend of nearly 2 years, good grades and have high hopes for the future. I dunno. I'm not depressed, more curious/anxious about what comes after death. Does everything you do in life become null? What happens to your thoughts, your mind, your accomplishments? Do you have a soul? Is there an afterlife (being an atheist). Death intrigues me, yet also scares me so yeah. I've thought about it.
I'm not one to think of suicide, but I did seriously think of it once.
During the last few months of sophomore year, I partially came out of the closet (I posted it on my strictly friends only facebook, lol). Anyways, I felt more comfortable about my identity, even though I wasn't really the "feminine/flamboyant/typical gay boy" type of gay, and started to be more open about my sexuality whenever I was asked.
Fast forwarding to my art class in junior year, this was the year I felt like I couldn't make it. Unfortunately, the art class was mixed with all grades, so there were immature freshmen in the class. In my high school, the majority of the students would know who was gay because apparently you'd be near the top of the high school social pyramid (especially because the school was mostly Asians, and the Asians were cool with each other, and sexuality didn't really bother anyone). There was a particular group of freshmen boys at this table that I happened to be facing because of the seating chart, and you could immediately tell that they were trouble makers, and they targeted me because they already knew I was gay. They would often shout "gay" and intimidatingly stare at me and sometimes throw paper balls at my table. Even though my table was mostly occupied by upperclassmen, that wasn't enough to stop them. Eventually I felt depressed and thought of suicide, but I thought to myself "Why should I kill myself just because a group of immature and stupid freshmen felt intimidated by my sexuality?" I started to ignore them for the rest of the school year, and they eventually stopped picking on me. Here I am today, not giving a crap about what people think anymore. I mean, it's hard to tell if I'm gay, so that's a plus.
TLDR: Bullied because of sexuality, ignored the bullies, bullies ignored me, and I went on with life.
Not really, no
I'm very good at just being here.
Just did.
Life just isn't interesting enough.
I feel like I'm forced to make my own entertainment.
there hasn't been a single day where i haven't thought about killing myself
am i suicidal? no, not anymore. it's a temporary feeling--wanting to make the #$%* stop. never do i actually feel like dying.
I think about committing suicide pretty much everyday now.
All your comments made me laugh and smile Im a very positive person,thats what im best known for, but i guess no ome can see my true feelings because well i keep em hidden. I keep it hidden because well i dont like depending on people to feel good. Id rather make some one else feel better. so if that means pretending to positive so i can make other people happy well im fine with that but i know it hurts me more over time just i cant get myself to depend on people. I've never had to depend on any one in my life ever sense i was about 6ish.
but again all your comments made me smile and laugh so thanks guys <3
Edit:Message towards TimmyBitty. sorry to hear about all that man and good thing all the thoughts and gone away for now. im happy that you didn't do it cause im sure you're a real swell guy. Happy to hear your friends ans family are helping you get through the rough times every one needs loved ones in times of need.
Hope your life gets better and joyful.
I was not taught about death until I took high school biology
when im so sick and my nose is preventing me from tasting the delicacies
I've thought about it many times but like you never really had it in me to take my life away. I've held a knife to my chest and contemplated about it for 15 minutes once. Though lately I haven't thought about suicide despite life being a lot more stressful but compared to last time I have much more support from friends and family.
Only when I eat to much KFC, and I feel the need to kill myself , as a result of constipation...
Never I usually can find positive things worth living for. Hope you feel better and you can always talk to basilers when you're feeling down. A handful of people here are genuinely caring and helpful.
doesn't it hurt when you kill yourself
Well, depression is a [i]WarWithinYou[/i], but like all wars, there are counter measures and tactics to win. You should really be more open about to some of your closest friends. It'll help, I know.