your textwalls are very bloated and if you pared your posts down (you could do so easily without reducing the actual content) then 1. more people would read it, good for you 2. people would be less annoyed, good for them 3. you learn brevity which is important in english
everybody benefits
also im very disappointed telvanni i liked your maple island fantheory this one is rude and, worst of all, unfunny
@duckymucky: Yeah, I'm actually planning to do essentially that. Not really for my own benefit...but mostly to cut out with this stupid controversy and the kinda unfair pressure it puts on ppl who have defended me along the way. I really don't want to make them suffer by association with me just so I can refuse to compromise whatever meaningless standards I even have represent.
Honestly, I sometimes like reading the paragraphs you write- as they are somewhat of a good read. But girl, it seems like they get longer and longer as time goes by and I'm not even on basil everyday xD.
Just cut them shorter, so your opinion gets to the point. I guarantee more people will value your input.
@imshocute: Thats the whole thing I'm confused by. It amounts to...what? Moving your fingertip roughly 2 centimeters and you're totally in the clear? You know, there are starving kids in Africa.
@shangz --> : You mistake me for someone that is trying to say something remotely serious or of any value not directly attributable solely to the subject itself. If my words are getting in the way - then you can be certain I'm not trying to convey anything of value.
For all the people hung up on disproving whatever and exposing whatever by making whatever it is people make of things I say to 'catch me'...you can stop now (unless you're entertaining yourself in which case go right on ahead) You missed the boat. Making sense was something I bothered with back before. I stopped concerning myself with that way back. Rule of thumb: if what I'm saying is overbearing enough to get your attention, even if I'm making a relevant point - the point has prolly fallen by the wayside and is just a means to whatever end. Once playing around supercedes making a point for me - I stop worrying about that point because I'm all too well aware that my feigned arrogance and silly word play negates any value I would otherwise be trying to uphold...so it's best to stop trying while I'm ahead. Tho I can and do still keep up the ghost to some extent. But only as a tool. I stopped adding anything resembling personal input the moment I gave in to talking in circles and opening the thesaurus. Earlier today I opened a legal dictionary (here: http://www.basilmarket.com/forum/2897289/2/#46621148 )
Other than that I trust (hope) that if you're smart enough to reference Maimonides then you're smart enough to get along in a thread I'm writing.
How to read what I'm writing (for people who want to) --> if I'm talking in circles I'm not talking to convey anything or make any sort of point whatsoever. Beyond that, if it's particularly difficult to follow along with anything I'm saying...then odds are I'm not trying to convey anything of merit either. If there's any question left in your mind - odds are you won't lack for tossing the whole thing out on account of my making no effort to convey anything of any merit. In general, I don't mean to convey anything of any merit. If you can't understand how I can be one thing and still be equally intent on not conveying anything of merit - then I'm prolly not someone you'll ever lack for tossing out with the other trash you ignore throughout your day. Mostly I'm just waiting for someone to go into the deep end and come back at me with some sort of claim that I'm only pretending to sound smart and am not, on close inspection, 'saying anything.' Again - this is predicated on the assumption that I'm trying to convey anything, let alone worry about knowing my way around every friggin word I toss into the mix. Understanding isn't even 25% of the friggin goal. As far as I'm concerned - if I can enunciate it, then I'm entitled to say it until I don't wanna say it any more. Definitions are for people who read.
Beyond that it gets iffy. I don't really know most of the time where I end and trolling begins. I don't really think I need to know, though, and, frankly, don't really concern myself with me insofar as it becomes relevant to anything. I'm content here on Basil to assume that if I have a direction, then it's not my job to make anything of it - let alone betray it to anyone O_O
The one promise I will alwaysalwaysalways hold to, and this is actually the sole reason I bothered writing this --> if I slip up and insult anyone - I'm really sorry for that and genuinely didn't mean to. I get some mixture of defensive, carried away and hyper in varying degrees at different times...dependent on my rl mood, the sort of things going on, and whatever else, and, like I said, am really prone to getting carried away in my own endless confusion between trolling and doing something meaningful while never wanting to sell myself out by doing one or the other too seriously or well. If I think I've strayed too far, then I'll prolly intentionally derail the entire thing and just go down with it in flames.
I never, ever, want to hurt anyone tho. I used to similarly never want people to think I was being arrogant - but now I don't care because it's all the same. I'm never, however, arrogant in a serious way. If I am...I srsly apologize and didn't mean to get so caught up in myself and/or insult anyone's intelligence. I'll apologize to you personally if it makes you feel better.
I'm all too aware of how dangerous messing with anyone in a mean way is, especially over the internet where you don't know the person or their situation in life. Getting involved with that sorta thing and risking the actual infliction of pain, the actual screwing up of someones self confidence - anything. I reserve the right to defend myself and that tends to involve totally, and intentionally, obliterating all semblance of restraint to just push it as far as I possibly can, for as long as I possibly can, until you step back and just appreciate the fact that you're not the one wasting their time on such stupidity. But, insofar as I'm defending myself, even if you're my sworn enemy (your words), but for whatever reason want me to back off and stop - I will, no questions asked. Just ask me in PM and I will stop and you can continue trashing me to your hearts content. I'm not a martyr - I just don't wanna hurt anyone.
@cxter: I've actually thot about it a bit recently, lol.
It would save me some time and energy having to wait around and correct/respond/defend myself from whatever that goes along with posting anything here. Not that I'm complaining...but I am complaining. lol.
@pandapoet: Wrote a 'story' to wade further in on the details of what I'm trying get across. Idk why...for once I didn't want to write about it - but for whatever lame reason I just somehow feel like its wrong to aimlessly throw whatever sect of the population these ppl 'represent' right off whatever bridge they also threw their capacity for critical thinking and rational thought. I'm sure they mean well...but it's especially disheartening and depressing to later see these same people toss right back in my face my exact words as if it highlights their thesis regarding my innate racism...bc they're just THAT profoundly simple and unable to detect and navigate 'nuance' that they honestly feel like they got lucky today because the words were all right their ready for them to cut and paste! Literally.
It's hopeless and embodies less meaning and value than throwing a handful of dirt across a remote dirt road and promising to whatever trees are around that its between just the few of us and feeling good that they didn't break their promise later on.
I hate feeling this way because I know I'm being arrogant...but it's that or depressed and I'd rather not be sad. I'm sure whoever these people are they already have enough other people to high five them in the dark, stormy night...and still come out with plenty of time to go around and waste on NOT being pragmatic, making NO effort to work constructively with ANYONE and comfortably finish out the rest of their mediocre day in the comfort of knowing that, today, like all the other countless days - they did the dirty work and went the distance to deal with people who, this time, actually presented a challenge to work with that required more finesse and thought than opening the fridge without hitting themselves in the face with the door.
But I guess that's what you get when your friends are willing to lie to you while you navigate the lonely passages in time that form such harrowing canyons between 'red light' and the wholly unexpected hit in the gut only 'green light' can pull off so unexpectedly. The whole game just disintegrates into chaos, leaving you stuck hoping that this time both legs move at the same time and not just that one and that other arm.
Don't mean to be mean. Just annoyed with the time lost wasted on people who don't care, never could care...but who I still feel like I owe the time and effort it takes to try another go at explaining to them what I mean.
I actually like @ashledattacked: now
She's sort've like pepper. You don't wanna eat it directly but you don't mind it on your burger or your rice, amirite dunno
@garrettshot: Don't doll it up as so profoundly simple that it only confuses itself under its own profound weight... I've been using the game, the various forums that have cropped up around it, on and on for years and years. Ever since 2009 I have been an active part of either directly leading or being a jr in one or another of the top 5 guilds in Scania. I have similarly maintained the same friendships for the same amount of time.
This isn't to hide behind as excuse for lacking substance...or an attempt to brag. I mention it specifically bc I find this all so utterly curious...namely bc I HAVE NEVER EVEN ONCE...before this ONE specific iteration...come across anything even approaching this lvl of backlash and collective hive mind bent on putting me in my place...and making it hurt, too. lol. NOT ONCE. Like I have said - I have been interacting on a relatively day to day basis with Maplestory, specifically Scania, for almost 10 years. My reputation is essentially perfect.
I have never ONCE been scammed because I have never once been in a position where I was forced to rely on anyone for anything I hadn't already earned by merit simply of being me and being honest. I've never had to go first. I've never needed anyone to vouch for me. No matter how cohesive and or singular the complaint against me is currently - it doesn't go any distance towards explaining the totally absence of animosity I've come across in this game - even NOW (bc I definitely haven't felt any uptick in any silly animosity anywhere but here) lol. I use 3 other forums pertaining to Maple - each with no controversy associated with my essential 'being.' In game - I similarly NEVER find any controversy. I also post on several other unrelated forums (most notably three forums, one dedicated to History, another to Meteorology, and the final one towards gaming on a less specific lvl - On one of those forums I have been a moderator for 3 years (and it has a user base roughly similar in size to Basil's), and again and again and again - I never drum up ANY controversy anywhere but here and only JUST NOW. Suddenly, I decide to practice my English here and everyone has their own portable explanation for this that and everything - and all of it is SOOOOO clever and neatly tailored to how and why I suck and annoy the whole world. rofl. It's just such jarring incongruous NOTHING that...frankly...just betrays some bizarre issue somehow relevant ONLY at BasilMarket.
It's just beyond bizarre in my eyes as someone who has consistently been actively and with next to no downtime involved taking part in this game. I was active here when we trained at Gobies and Zombies. I was in one or another top ranking guild since guilds were released.
But anyways - Basil has always been the one forum I never really got along with bc the more I feel coaxed into coexisting with some form of unnatural superfluous rule system...the harder it is for me to not poke at it endlessly like a scab.
It's all one big yawn that endlessly frustrates me bc no matter how closely I look at it and try to be honest with myself - the less meaningful and more tangential any trend becomes.
But whatever. I'm content posting here the way I want to post...I have no intention to change any of that. I may try to tone down my excessive droning introspection on finding more ways to throw words at some rhythm or cadence without losing the flow or losing the meaning...but only because defending myself while maintaining my honesty in being me has lost its larger meaning somewhere in this drawn out attempt to be true to some ideal that means nothing here talking about Maplestory.
@ashleyattacked: "Racism does not Genocide make. Clouding everyone with the notion that they are one in the same is nothing more than thotless stupidity. They each have a hand helping the other - but so do tons and tons of others things.
The path from Viennese Anti-Semitism to Hitler to the Holocaust did not begin and end with people making sweeping generalizations of questionable value. It actually started from moral preaching against it that fomented its own ideas of reverse racism...which they, and finally Hitler...then Germany...bought into. They felt like they had been wronged by their own concept of racism."
soo... what ur saying is promoting racial equality is bad? because it could lead to reverse racism from ppl who stand against racial equality???
I think it all comes down to the simple fact that she's annoying. Her reasons for being annoying don't matter. She's just a person who talks too much and has an opinion about everything. That kind of a person is generally annoying.
I can enjoy reading the long posts she makes when they're serious, educational, helpful, or light-heartedly comedic.
I do admit that I'm not a fan of the "pointless super inflated and expanded mean-spirited posts", but as long as she doesn't break any forum rules, you people shouldn't have a problem.
Let her be who she is. Maybe if you're nice to her, you won't see any mean posts from her and can actually have a meaningful intellectual exchange with her!
If what you say about being obsessed with a wide variety of subjects is true, and from what I've read from you, you're obviously quite intelligent despite your rambling posts. I admire a person that values knowledge like that, I wish I could do the same.
It's okay if you want to make long posts.
This is a forum for a globally run children's computer game, which has had more than a decade to cultivate its player base. Naturally, there are going to be all kinds of people here. Some will be single-minded and immature, they will choose to see you as a troll. Others may be a little more open-minded and appreciative of your personality. Please don't take the insults from the former personally.
tbh ashley your writing is incredibly pretentious and panders to the masses. I had the notion that I would write about something positive and optimistic instead of going on about how tactless you are. Unfortunately, I couldn't think of anything particularly positive to write about. So, instead, I'll just tell you that your promise to change your ways has long since been proven insincere. Before I say anything else, let me remind you that your fantasy is to hurt people's feelings. You dream of a world that grants such a freedom with no strings attached. In that nightmare world it has long since been forgotten that you refer to a variety of things using the word â€�"pharmacodynamicâ€. Translating this bit of jargon into English isn't easy. Basically, you're saying that you know the â€�"right†way to read Plato, Maimonides, and Machiavelli, which we all know is patently absurd....@wall: can't even achieve this. At any rate, your apologues are a pestilential circle that begins and ends with yourself. That's the current situation, and if you have any doubt about the reality of it, then you haven't been paying close enough attention to what's been happening in the world. I'm by no means the first person to expose you as an avaricious palooka. However, it's still somewhat rare for anyone to state publicly that the biggest supporters of your truculent ethics are treacherous, pretentious gilly-gaupuses and jejune, pot-valiant ignoramuses. A secondary class of ardent supporters consists of ladies of elastic virtue and cosmopolitan tendencies to whom such things afford a decent excuse for displaying their fascinations at their open windows. At the same time, I am not up on the latest gossip. Still, I have heard people say that you count the worst classes of clueless, moralistic twerps I've ever seen as your friends. Unfortunately for you, these are hired friends, false friends, friends incapable of realizing for a moment that anyoneâ€"you or I or a Martian who just arrived in a flying saucerâ€"who wants to ensure that you receives his just deserts should realize that I do not have the time in one sitting to go into the long answer as to why you're the ultimate source of alienation and repression around here. True to form, you ceaselessly move the goalposts to prevent others from benefiting from the same perks. This suggests that he has found a way to avoid compliance with basilmarket regulations, circumvent any further litigation, and poison the relationship between teacher and studentâ€"all by trumping up a phony emergency. If I try really, really hard, I can almost see why you would want to use organized violence to suppress opposition. Let me clue you in on a little something: Making a mockery of the term â€�"contemporaneousness†is a mug's game. The only reason you would do things like that is because you often complain about how basil's attitude toward @wall: is not normally properly worshipful and submissive. Or, to express that sentiment without all of the emotionally charged lingo, for those of us who make our living trying to preach a message of community and brotherly love, it is important to consider that if you hadn't been changing the course of history, it simply would not have occurred to me to write the letter you now are reading. Why, I might have taken the day off altogether. Or maybe I would have been out preventing the bananannian-induced catastrophe I foresee and saving our nation from its time of deepest humiliation and disgrace. In any case, you're a financial predator who preys on the elderly, the gullible, and the vulnerable. You seek their assets to support your own lavish lifestyle. Keep that in mind while I state the following: Your mumpish magic-bullet explanations are causing charlatanism to spiral out of control in our societyâ€"and you know it.
@repentant: loll, you have no idea. Something I've always told ppl is that I'm somehow OBSESSED with every single subject on earth - with the one exception being Oceanography. lol. Tho it's true. I hate it o.o
Anyways...since things are the way they are...I obviously have effectively 0 people to talk with or share stuff I actually love and feel motivated to live by. And that's kinda what it gets down to...theres just no other way to share the things that I love on such a deep lvl that they motivate me to want to live if only so that I can keep reading books about them, lol.
It's literally the defining thing in my life. I'm on an obsession with Hitler the past few months...but it always evolves. Before this current obsession I was obsessed to the same overbearing degree with the French Revolution and how it bled into and both launched and made possible Napoleon's career.
It just ebbs and flows over time...but yeah.
And before the French Revolution kick...I was obsessed with Comparative Mythology/Religion/Philosophy...especially insofar as it provides the larger context for Freudian and Jungian Depth Psychology. It sounds like I'm just blithering out complicated crap...but it's not. I just really love this stuff. lol.
Normal people don't spend their time writing walls upon walls of text--especially on gaming forums--so it's nice to see someone so passionate about writing and history that it seeps into every part of their comments. Granted her posts can veer off into weird and unexpected directions, but they're fun to read, and when someone is really passionate is something, can you really blame them?
@jaytokyo: Because we all know that by clouding a subject in such a way that a large number of people will not only dismiss it as tripe but also take from it the feelings and emotions necessary for them to imagine themselves victims of some sort of reverse racism and then lash out against it preemptively is the way to go bc it's right 'on paper.' Refusing to work with the world by acknowledging the important roles stereotypes and peopleshorthand have ALWAYS played is one of the quickest ways to make sure your point is discarded and your energy wasted.
Racism does not Genocide make. Clouding everyone with the notion that they are one in the same is nothing more than thotless stupidity. They each have a hand helping the other - but so do tons and tons of others things.
The path from Viennese Anti-Semitism to Hitler to the Holocaust did not begin and end with people making sweeping generalizations of questionable value. It actually started from moral preaching against it that fomented its own ideas of reverse racism...which they, and finally Hitler...then Germany...bought into. They felt like they had been wronged by their own concept of racism.
If you want to keep refusing to acknowledge the role pragmatism has to play in any large scale reform or movement of any kind in any society - go ahead. We disagree. That doesn't make me a liar or a hypocrite. I just don't believe we do ourselves any good by throwing up walls just for the sake of being 'right.'
When I see her respond to things and halfway down the text wall she's talking about Nazi Germany I just give up on reading what she had to say, rambles a lot, not enjoyable to read in my opinion. Nothing against her personally, I don't know her, but from what I've seen on basil I feel like she exerts her "knowledge" in an untasteful way.
@ashleyattacked: I don't usually get involved in stuff like this but.. You just said it's wrong to pick and choose what is serious and what isn't but you just did the exact same thing by trying to undermine injustices of another race.
Your post was one big wall of hypocrisy, and to break your statement down even further what is and isn't considered "OK" all depends on whom you are speaking to and where you're keeping this conversation.
You spoke about bias and bigotry while being biased and a bigot.. I don't understand.
It gets no more cruel, mean or controversial than that.
It's especially amusing that my 'trolling' consists of nothing but practicing English. I admit my tone shifted the more frustrated and angry I got with this board as a whole...in its expression towards hurting me on a personal lvl.
Many of the controversial ideas attributed to me fall somewhere between me lacking the English skills to properly present my ideas or thoughts...and me somewhat baiting people with trigger lines and nonsense. My threads defending the jews arise from my background and my family history in eastern Europe. I thought and still think that many American's take for granted their isolation from real world problems. The reason I dwell on this is particularly expressed in the notion that if someone here acts racist against a 'black' person - they stand to lose their job, their friends - etc.
But if they make a joke against the Jews - heck, that's funny!!
Are you guys serious??
The friggin Jewish people were very nearly EXTERMINATED AS A RACE just friggin 70 years ago.
The 'black people'...?
Two wrongs don't make a right - but they also don't make the systematic race based genocide of 6 million ppl in JUST 1.5 YEARS less flipping serious than black/white racism.
I may have ticked off people along the path to try to get people to realize that this sort of moral equivocation is evil but whatever. It is what it is and to think I'm advocating racism based on any ground whatsoever is ridiculous. Even more ridiculous when these same people try to insinuate that I am saying 'racism doesn't exist' or that any expression of racism is anything other than abhorrent. No. I am not saying that its okay to be racist because the Jews were targetted for systematic extermination as a race 70 years ago. Thinking I said anything like that is patently stupid.
But there DOES exist a HUGE and important disparity between big R racism...the kind that ended with 6 million Jews gas'd or 4 million Ukrainians starved to death in 1 year and the over the top race jingoism thats so disgusting in America. I'm not trying to say anything is wrong with Americans - but there is a HUGE disparity and it's very much worth considering when people dilute the importance of this subject by ramming their morals down the throat of every stupid person who makes a joke about black people sagging their pants. Don't friggin tell me I'm saying racism doesn't exist bc the Jews in Europe roughly ceased to exist 70 years ago. I'm saying that the importance of this subject, a subject whose best expressions is found not in stopping the terrorist reign of white ppl making jokes about KFC chicken or about azn's and anime. No. It's in stopping another systematic race based genocide for EVER happening again...and, my fear is that by ramming silly morals down the throats of every person making a joke about Mexicans and Beans -- we're missing the friggin point. Not just that - we're diluting the waters of a VERY serious subject - in some ways THE MOST SERIOUS SUBJECT - and rendering it somehow 'silly' by association.
If I advocate tolerance towards anything approaching racism in any form - it's done not towards the ends of allowing for anything racist whatsoever. It's bc I acknowledge the deep, HUGELY DEEP AND INGRAINED...roll that racism has ALWAYS played in our specific since the beginning of time. I don't want to tolerate any form of racism - but when it's about reaching the largest possible number of people on a lvl that we can all come together on a general consensus of right/wrong/evil as it pertains to racism - the goal, in my mind, is not to lock the subject down tight and let nothing get loose - it's to get thru to the greatest number of people on a shared consensus as I can and have the largest possible number of them come away from the subject realizing that the biggest reason to think genocidal expressions of racism are a REAL threat is bc 'they if it happened friggin once, it can happen again'...instead of walking away pissing away the seriousness of the subject with American stupidity by trying to convince everyone that jokes about Asians and calculators are a direct extension of race based genocide. No. All that does is make people laugh and tell off colour jokes and render the whole subject tantamount to a joke.
@ashleyattacked: I do admit that I am occasionally a little irritated by some of the things you write, but I can see that it's harmless.
Being hurtful though is a crappy thing to do, even though sometimes I'll write something horrible and mean. I'll usually regret it later on and send that person a PM or whatever. I have a hard time sticking to my guns, and I say terrible things in the heat of the moment. I don't know if that redeems my bad behavior, but it makes me feel better .
All in all, I think being mindful is key. Understanding each other's perspectives and putting yourself in other peoples' shoes is helpful. I'm just rambling at this point, but I hope people stop acting like assholes around here, me included.
@duzz: I don't pretend to say I don't come across that way anymore.
I'm playing into it now for whatever fun it represents...
People here are rude and I just can't fathom what it takes in someone to try as hard as these people have to inflict pain on me. I never did a damned thing to any of them. I was cautious, clear, made sure to let them know what I was doing (practicing my English...and intentionally using larger words and cadences I pick up wherever...just to get used to the language)
When it started I was clear to let them know that this and that was truly hurtful to me and specifically made me hurt. You know what? Basil only doubled down on its collective attempts to inflict real life pain.
So I gave up and stopped caring. If people are that morally reprehensible then so be it. Now I just have fun and entertain myself the way I want. I've actually met a lot of people who enjoy the sort of nonsensical play I post here, dressed up in various historical references, etc. I've had a lot of rly fun convos bc of all that. Outside of that - if people are still having fun trying to hurt someone they don't know and have no idea what impact they're having - so be it.
I genuinely feel bad for people who are left with a world where they cannot even remotely appreciate the random quotes, vague references and loosely connected historical non sense I have so much fun throwing around out of boredom. But it's not just that - I'm not feeling arrogant as someone that, imo, is far better and more widely read than anyone she has ever come across...no. That's book knowledge...which roughly works out to an equation hinged to no degree on intelligence.
But where I feel bad for people is when it comes to the leap between all of that - and the sudden determination that they are not only in a position to naively call me out and betray their shortcomings in history, but also in their ability to understand what I'm saying, the random playfulness I'm insinuating into it (for example, I was randomly playing around a bit back and got insulted for dwelling on saturdays, the Brits taking a picnic in the country and dropping surprises. Of course it was only loosely derived from anything of historical basis - BUT it still was...and I was insulted for being unread and lacking the ability to 'coherently put it all together.' Actually - I was kinda surprised to see someone use a big word like 'coherently'...but thats where any feelings like that crashed and burned. For some sense of the way I joking express boredom and practice writing - go back to what I just said about saturday, the Brits, etc. Yeah - it all sounds nonsensical - but...what I was actually doing was making a joke about Nexon's manner of dropping patch related info. The thing that tied it all together is that throughout the 1930s and into the middle of maybe 1943ish (prolly around when tides started turning for the blitzkreig, Russian, specifically Stalingrad, etc) - But!! One of the silly tactics employed by Hitler was his way in which he kept his cards veryvery close to his chest - and, when finally ready to release them on his enemies, he stuck to a kinda silly tactic: namely, he almost always saved his 'surprises' - in whatever form - for Saturdays. Thus, what I was trashed for as being nonsensical drivel...was actually a clear reference. It goes further...bc, the way in which I tied it together with the Brits and picnics goes back to one of the theories some ppl have as to why this Saturday trend even existed...there was a kinda inside joke amongst the higher ups in the SS that Hitler did this Saturday crap bc he believed that the British might not notice since they didn't work on Saturday - instead going to the country to have picnics.
So there you go - virtually every nonsensical jab is actally completely sensical and just an attempt at layering and layering info on top of itself...mainly bc I have no else to use such stupid knowledge. BUT I WANT TO. lol. And, frankly, these sorts of odd flecks of knowledge are fun to share with other people...
Anyways - back to what I feel sorry for these people regarding - its not even that, it's that not only are they too dull to know, and I'll allow that its not fair to assume that anyone will pick up on a joke tying Freud, by way of him being a Jew, to a loosely associated quote by his once successor - later rival - Carl Jung (an Austrian) and a line from one of his books saying, half in jest, half in curiosity of the nature of the 'Symbol' (note how much Hitler got ahead of the game by playing so well in the the nature of the Symbol, etc...and, further, a quote from Jung that somewhat chided Freud but was also rly rather antisemetic and very questionable - 'And now Germany has her fuhrer.'
It's depressing...and I truly feel bad for the ppl to whom this applies to...that not only do these ppl not know what they're talking about - but that they're so self assured in their ignorance that they can't even begin to realize not only when they're out of their depth - but, instead, go ignorantly like an idiot a few steps further, past their right to claim fair degrees of ignorance - and plow straight, headlong, into the inability to know their own limitations.
But I'll go ahead and allow even that privilege to these ppl. But where they really cross the line is just past the line of their own stupidity and right about when they decide to wade in to their waist before unleashing personal attacks trying to hurt me or others.
If you're gonna be stupid, at least do it in the privacy of your own bedroom...and try ur best to avoid exposing yourself. Try even harder still to know that if you're gonna make a fool of urself and ur own lack of knowledge - at least don't do it when you're trying to hurt another person who has done nothing to you.
You may feel cool and all posturing behind your monitor like some sort of badass and taking 'easy' shots at some girl you don't know, never will know, because the cool kids are doing it too - but just stop. Don't triple dumb yourselves into a lather falling over yourselves to craft the next clever witticism out of, essentially, your own ignorance and stupidity. I never hurt you. Go to bed.
@telvanni: "you are an irredeemably gluttonous coccydynia and a primitive coma-inducing proof that evolution can go in reverse and you are an unequivocally hideous hemorrhoid and a catatonic bug-eyed mediocrity-afflicted neophyte with glacially slow cognitive faculties."
in all seriousness, putting hard words just make you look silly.
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@ashleyattacked: "https://ashleyattacks.wordpress.com/2015/10/27/thoughts-on-racism-as-spread-by-those-unwilling-to-convert-anyone-not-already-converted-by-some-meaningless-luck-of-the-draw/"
soo... basically promoting racial equality is bad coz it lead to reverse racism (which lead to genocide)?..?? u are saying that yes?
I don't see what I'm dolling up, its simple, you are annoying with your posts, nothing more nothing less. That is why people dislike you. Thats it.
P.S. Obviously I didnt read whatever extra response you had because honestly you just gotta learn to get to the point of your posts. Meow
@ashleyattacked you should write less things
your textwalls are very bloated and if you pared your posts down (you could do so easily without reducing the actual content) then
1. more people would read it, good for you
2. people would be less annoyed, good for them
3. you learn brevity which is important in english
everybody benefits
also im very disappointed telvanni
i liked your maple island fantheory
this one is rude and, worst of all, unfunny
@ashleyattacked: Np boo! Anytime
@duckymucky: Yeah, I'm actually planning to do essentially that. Not really for my own benefit...but mostly to cut out with this stupid controversy and the kinda unfair pressure it puts on ppl who have defended me along the way. I really don't want to make them suffer by association with me just so I can refuse to compromise whatever meaningless standards I even have represent.
So yeah, thanks for the nice words =)
Honestly, I sometimes like reading the paragraphs you write- as they are somewhat of a good read. But girl, it seems like they get longer and longer as time goes by and I'm not even on basil everyday xD.
Just cut them shorter, so your opinion gets to the point. I guarantee more people will value your input.
i can't get through those huge paragraphs
@imshocute: Thats the whole thing I'm confused by. It amounts to...what? Moving your fingertip roughly 2 centimeters and you're totally in the clear? You know, there are starving kids in Africa.
just ignore her wall of text. it's not that hard to just scroll by it.
@shangz --> : You mistake me for someone that is trying to say something remotely serious or of any value not directly attributable solely to the subject itself. If my words are getting in the way - then you can be certain I'm not trying to convey anything of value.
For all the people hung up on disproving whatever and exposing whatever by making whatever it is people make of things I say to 'catch me'...you can stop now (unless you're entertaining yourself in which case go right on ahead)
You missed the boat. Making sense was something I bothered with back before. I stopped concerning myself with that way back. Rule of thumb: if what I'm saying is overbearing enough to get your attention, even if I'm making a relevant point - the point has prolly fallen by the wayside and is just a means to whatever end. Once playing around supercedes making a point for me - I stop worrying about that point because I'm all too well aware that my feigned arrogance and silly word play negates any value I would otherwise be trying to uphold...so it's best to stop trying while I'm ahead. Tho I can and do still keep up the ghost to some extent. But only as a tool. I stopped adding anything resembling personal input the moment I gave in to talking in circles and opening the thesaurus. Earlier today I opened a legal dictionary (here: http://www.basilmarket.com/forum/2897289/2/#46621148 )
Other than that I trust (hope) that if you're smart enough to reference Maimonides then you're smart enough to get along in a thread I'm writing.
How to read what I'm writing (for people who want to) --> if I'm talking in circles I'm not talking to convey anything or make any sort of point whatsoever. Beyond that, if it's particularly difficult to follow along with anything I'm saying...then odds are I'm not trying to convey anything of merit either. If there's any question left in your mind - odds are you won't lack for tossing the whole thing out on account of my making no effort to convey anything of any merit. In general, I don't mean to convey anything of any merit. If you can't understand how I can be one thing and still be equally intent on not conveying anything of merit - then I'm prolly not someone you'll ever lack for tossing out with the other trash you ignore throughout your day. Mostly I'm just waiting for someone to go into the deep end and come back at me with some sort of claim that I'm only pretending to sound smart and am not, on close inspection, 'saying anything.' Again - this is predicated on the assumption that I'm trying to convey anything, let alone worry about knowing my way around every friggin word I toss into the mix. Understanding isn't even 25% of the friggin goal. As far as I'm concerned - if I can enunciate it, then I'm entitled to say it until I don't wanna say it any more. Definitions are for people who read.
Beyond that it gets iffy. I don't really know most of the time where I end and trolling begins. I don't really think I need to know, though, and, frankly, don't really concern myself with me insofar as it becomes relevant to anything. I'm content here on Basil to assume that if I have a direction, then it's not my job to make anything of it - let alone betray it to anyone O_O
The one promise I will alwaysalwaysalways hold to, and this is actually the sole reason I bothered writing this --> if I slip up and insult anyone - I'm really sorry for that and genuinely didn't mean to. I get some mixture of defensive, carried away and hyper in varying degrees at different times...dependent on my rl mood, the sort of things going on, and whatever else, and, like I said, am really prone to getting carried away in my own endless confusion between trolling and doing something meaningful while never wanting to sell myself out by doing one or the other too seriously or well. If I think I've strayed too far, then I'll prolly intentionally derail the entire thing and just go down with it in flames.
I never, ever, want to hurt anyone tho. I used to similarly never want people to think I was being arrogant - but now I don't care because it's all the same. I'm never, however, arrogant in a serious way. If I am...I srsly apologize and didn't mean to get so caught up in myself and/or insult anyone's intelligence. I'll apologize to you personally if it makes you feel better.
I'm all too aware of how dangerous messing with anyone in a mean way is, especially over the internet where you don't know the person or their situation in life. Getting involved with that sorta thing and risking the actual infliction of pain, the actual screwing up of someones self confidence - anything. I reserve the right to defend myself and that tends to involve totally, and intentionally, obliterating all semblance of restraint to just push it as far as I possibly can, for as long as I possibly can, until you step back and just appreciate the fact that you're not the one wasting their time on such stupidity. But, insofar as I'm defending myself, even if you're my sworn enemy (your words), but for whatever reason want me to back off and stop - I will, no questions asked. Just ask me in PM and I will stop and you can continue trashing me to your hearts content. I'm not a martyr - I just don't wanna hurt anyone.
Meow.
@shangz: Congrats! You just out-Ashleyed Ashley!
@cxter: I've actually thot about it a bit recently, lol.
It would save me some time and energy having to wait around and correct/respond/defend myself from whatever that goes along with posting anything here. Not that I'm complaining...but I am complaining. lol.
@ashleyattacked: you know, you could be a great blogger.
@pandapoet: Wrote a 'story' to wade further in on the details of what I'm trying get across. Idk why...for once I didn't want to write about it - but for whatever lame reason I just somehow feel like its wrong to aimlessly throw whatever sect of the population these ppl 'represent' right off whatever bridge they also threw their capacity for critical thinking and rational thought. I'm sure they mean well...but it's especially disheartening and depressing to later see these same people toss right back in my face my exact words as if it highlights their thesis regarding my innate racism...bc they're just THAT profoundly simple and unable to detect and navigate 'nuance' that they honestly feel like they got lucky today because the words were all right their ready for them to cut and paste!
Literally.
It's hopeless and embodies less meaning and value than throwing a handful of dirt across a remote dirt road and promising to whatever trees are around that its between just the few of us and feeling good that they didn't break their promise later on.
I hate feeling this way because I know I'm being arrogant...but it's that or depressed and I'd rather not be sad. I'm sure whoever these people are they already have enough other people to high five them in the dark, stormy night...and still come out with plenty of time to go around and waste on NOT being pragmatic, making NO effort to work constructively with ANYONE and comfortably finish out the rest of their mediocre day in the comfort of knowing that, today, like all the other countless days - they did the dirty work and went the distance to deal with people who, this time, actually presented a challenge to work with that required more finesse and thought than opening the fridge without hitting themselves in the face with the door.
But I guess that's what you get when your friends are willing to lie to you while you navigate the lonely passages in time that form such harrowing canyons between 'red light' and the wholly unexpected hit in the gut only 'green light' can pull off so unexpectedly. The whole game just disintegrates into chaos, leaving you stuck hoping that this time both legs move at the same time and not just that one and that other arm.
Don't mean to be mean. Just annoyed with the time lost wasted on people who don't care, never could care...but who I still feel like I owe the time and effort it takes to try another go at explaining to them what I mean.
https://ashleyattacks.wordpress.com/2015/10/27/thoughts-on-racism-as-spread-by-those-unwilling-to-convert-anyone-not-already-converted-by-some-meaningless-luck-of-the-draw/
I actually like @ashledattacked: now
She's sort've like pepper. You don't wanna eat it directly but you don't mind it on your burger or your rice, amirite dunno
@ashleyattacked: so going back to the question - promoting racial equality is bad cause it leads to reverse racism from racist minority groups?
@garrettshot: Don't doll it up as so profoundly simple that it only confuses itself under its own profound weight... I've been using the game, the various forums that have cropped up around it, on and on for years and years. Ever since 2009 I have been an active part of either directly leading or being a jr in one or another of the top 5 guilds in Scania. I have similarly maintained the same friendships for the same amount of time.
This isn't to hide behind as excuse for lacking substance...or an attempt to brag. I mention it specifically bc I find this all so utterly curious...namely bc I HAVE NEVER EVEN ONCE...before this ONE specific iteration...come across anything even approaching this lvl of backlash and collective hive mind bent on putting me in my place...and making it hurt, too. lol. NOT ONCE. Like I have said - I have been interacting on a relatively day to day basis with Maplestory, specifically Scania, for almost 10 years. My reputation is essentially perfect.
I have never ONCE been scammed because I have never once been in a position where I was forced to rely on anyone for anything I hadn't already earned by merit simply of being me and being honest. I've never had to go first. I've never needed anyone to vouch for me. No matter how cohesive and or singular the complaint against me is currently - it doesn't go any distance towards explaining the totally absence of animosity I've come across in this game - even NOW (bc I definitely haven't felt any uptick in any silly animosity anywhere but here) lol. I use 3 other forums pertaining to Maple - each with no controversy associated with my essential 'being.' In game - I similarly NEVER find any controversy. I also post on several other unrelated forums (most notably three forums, one dedicated to History, another to Meteorology, and the final one towards gaming on a less specific lvl - On one of those forums I have been a moderator for 3 years (and it has a user base roughly similar in size to Basil's), and again and again and again - I never drum up ANY controversy anywhere but here and only JUST NOW. Suddenly, I decide to practice my English here and everyone has their own portable explanation for this that and everything - and all of it is SOOOOO clever and neatly tailored to how and why I suck and annoy the whole world. rofl. It's just such jarring incongruous NOTHING that...frankly...just betrays some bizarre issue somehow relevant ONLY at BasilMarket.
It's just beyond bizarre in my eyes as someone who has consistently been actively and with next to no downtime involved taking part in this game. I was active here when we trained at Gobies and Zombies. I was in one or another top ranking guild since guilds were released.
But anyways - Basil has always been the one forum I never really got along with bc the more I feel coaxed into coexisting with some form of unnatural superfluous rule system...the harder it is for me to not poke at it endlessly like a scab.
It's all one big yawn that endlessly frustrates me bc no matter how closely I look at it and try to be honest with myself - the less meaningful and more tangential any trend becomes.
But whatever. I'm content posting here the way I want to post...I have no intention to change any of that. I may try to tone down my excessive droning introspection on finding more ways to throw words at some rhythm or cadence without losing the flow or losing the meaning...but only because defending myself while maintaining my honesty in being me has lost its larger meaning somewhere in this drawn out attempt to be true to some ideal that means nothing here talking about Maplestory.
Blah.
shes racist + hypocritical + posts 2 much. i come on basil for a good time, not for some kkk member who doesnt know when to stop typing
@ashleyattacked: "Racism does not Genocide make. Clouding everyone with the notion that they are one in the same is nothing more than thotless stupidity. They each have a hand helping the other - but so do tons and tons of others things.
The path from Viennese Anti-Semitism to Hitler to the Holocaust did not begin and end with people making sweeping generalizations of questionable value. It actually started from moral preaching against it that fomented its own ideas of reverse racism...which they, and finally Hitler...then Germany...bought into. They felt like they had been wronged by their own concept of racism."
soo... what ur saying is promoting racial equality is bad? because it could lead to reverse racism from ppl who stand against racial equality???
wew even my green card hate that gurl
can i copy this stuff for an engrish essay due in 2 hrs?
I think it all comes down to the simple fact that she's annoying. Her reasons for being annoying don't matter. She's just a person who talks too much and has an opinion about everything. That kind of a person is generally annoying.
I can enjoy reading the long posts she makes when they're serious, educational, helpful, or light-heartedly comedic.
I do admit that I'm not a fan of the "pointless super inflated and expanded mean-spirited posts", but as long as she doesn't break any forum rules, you people shouldn't have a problem.
Let her be who she is. Maybe if you're nice to her, you won't see any mean posts from her and can actually have a meaningful intellectual exchange with her!
she reminded me of another girl that was banned couple years back.. krysticakes.. people treated her the same way
@ashleyattacked
If what you say about being obsessed with a wide variety of subjects is true, and from what I've read from you, you're obviously quite intelligent despite your rambling posts. I admire a person that values knowledge like that, I wish I could do the same.
It's okay if you want to make long posts.
This is a forum for a globally run children's computer game, which has had more than a decade to cultivate its player base. Naturally, there are going to be all kinds of people here. Some will be single-minded and immature, they will choose to see you as a troll. Others may be a little more open-minded and appreciative of your personality. Please don't take the insults from the former personally.
maplestory teaches us a lot about history
tbh ashley your writing is incredibly pretentious and panders to the masses. I had the notion that I would write about something positive and optimistic instead of going on about how tactless you are. Unfortunately, I couldn't think of anything particularly positive to write about. So, instead, I'll just tell you that your promise to change your ways has long since been proven insincere. Before I say anything else, let me remind you that your fantasy is to hurt people's feelings. You dream of a world that grants such a freedom with no strings attached. In that nightmare world it has long since been forgotten that you refer to a variety of things using the word â€�"pharmacodynamicâ€. Translating this bit of jargon into English isn't easy. Basically, you're saying that you know the â€�"right†way to read Plato, Maimonides, and Machiavelli, which we all know is patently absurd....@wall: can't even achieve this. At any rate, your apologues are a pestilential circle that begins and ends with yourself. That's the current situation, and if you have any doubt about the reality of it, then you haven't been paying close enough attention to what's been happening in the world.
I'm by no means the first person to expose you as an avaricious palooka. However, it's still somewhat rare for anyone to state publicly that the biggest supporters of your truculent ethics are treacherous, pretentious gilly-gaupuses and jejune, pot-valiant ignoramuses. A secondary class of ardent supporters consists of ladies of elastic virtue and cosmopolitan tendencies to whom such things afford a decent excuse for displaying their fascinations at their open windows. At the same time, I am not up on the latest gossip. Still, I have heard people say that you count the worst classes of clueless, moralistic twerps I've ever seen as your friends. Unfortunately for you, these are hired friends, false friends, friends incapable of realizing for a moment that anyoneâ€"you or I or a Martian who just arrived in a flying saucerâ€"who wants to ensure that you receives his just deserts should realize that I do not have the time in one sitting to go into the long answer as to why you're the ultimate source of alienation and repression around here. True to form, you ceaselessly move the goalposts to prevent others from benefiting from the same perks. This suggests that he has found a way to avoid compliance with basilmarket regulations, circumvent any further litigation, and poison the relationship between teacher and studentâ€"all by trumping up a phony emergency.
If I try really, really hard, I can almost see why you would want to use organized violence to suppress opposition. Let me clue you in on a little something: Making a mockery of the term â€�"contemporaneousness†is a mug's game. The only reason you would do things like that is because you often complain about how basil's attitude toward @wall: is not normally properly worshipful and submissive. Or, to express that sentiment without all of the emotionally charged lingo, for those of us who make our living trying to preach a message of community and brotherly love, it is important to consider that if you hadn't been changing the course of history, it simply would not have occurred to me to write the letter you now are reading. Why, I might have taken the day off altogether. Or maybe I would have been out preventing the bananannian-induced catastrophe I foresee and saving our nation from its time of deepest humiliation and disgrace. In any case, you're a financial predator who preys on the elderly, the gullible, and the vulnerable. You seek their assets to support your own lavish lifestyle. Keep that in mind while I state the following: Your mumpish magic-bullet explanations are causing charlatanism to spiral out of control in our societyâ€"and you know it.
@repentant: loll, you have no idea. Something I've always told ppl is that I'm somehow OBSESSED with every single subject on earth - with the one exception being Oceanography. lol. Tho it's true. I hate it o.o
Anyways...since things are the way they are...I obviously have effectively 0 people to talk with or share stuff I actually love and feel motivated to live by. And that's kinda what it gets down to...theres just no other way to share the things that I love on such a deep lvl that they motivate me to want to live if only so that I can keep reading books about them, lol.
It's literally the defining thing in my life. I'm on an obsession with Hitler the past few months...but it always evolves. Before this current obsession I was obsessed to the same overbearing degree with the French Revolution and how it bled into and both launched and made possible Napoleon's career.
It just ebbs and flows over time...but yeah.
And before the French Revolution kick...I was obsessed with Comparative Mythology/Religion/Philosophy...especially insofar as it provides the larger context for Freudian and Jungian Depth Psychology. It sounds like I'm just blithering out complicated crap...but it's not. I just really love this stuff. lol.
lol hahaha
The only thing that matters is that ashley is into sodomy.
She's fine.
Normal people don't spend their time writing walls upon walls of text--especially on gaming forums--so it's nice to see someone so passionate about writing and history that it seeps into every part of their comments. Granted her posts can veer off into weird and unexpected directions, but they're fun to read, and when someone is really passionate is something, can you really blame them?
@jaytokyo: Because we all know that by clouding a subject in such a way that a large number of people will not only dismiss it as tripe but also take from it the feelings and emotions necessary for them to imagine themselves victims of some sort of reverse racism and then lash out against it preemptively is the way to go bc it's right 'on paper.' Refusing to work with the world by acknowledging the important roles stereotypes and peopleshorthand have ALWAYS played is one of the quickest ways to make sure your point is discarded and your energy wasted.
Racism does not Genocide make. Clouding everyone with the notion that they are one in the same is nothing more than thotless stupidity. They each have a hand helping the other - but so do tons and tons of others things.
The path from Viennese Anti-Semitism to Hitler to the Holocaust did not begin and end with people making sweeping generalizations of questionable value. It actually started from moral preaching against it that fomented its own ideas of reverse racism...which they, and finally Hitler...then Germany...bought into. They felt like they had been wronged by their own concept of racism.
If you want to keep refusing to acknowledge the role pragmatism has to play in any large scale reform or movement of any kind in any society - go ahead. We disagree. That doesn't make me a liar or a hypocrite. I just don't believe we do ourselves any good by throwing up walls just for the sake of being 'right.'
maybe its her mind wandering.. she has trouble staying on topic and talks about something totally different.. sorta like alzheimer's but not really
When I see her respond to things and halfway down the text wall she's talking about Nazi Germany I just give up on reading what she had to say, rambles a lot, not enjoyable to read in my opinion. Nothing against her personally, I don't know her, but from what I've seen on basil I feel like she exerts her "knowledge" in an untasteful way.
@ashleyattacked: I don't usually get involved in stuff like this but.. You just said it's wrong to pick and choose what is serious and what isn't but you just did the exact same thing by trying to undermine injustices of another race.
Your post was one big wall of hypocrisy, and to break your statement down even further what is and isn't considered "OK" all depends on whom you are speaking to and where you're keeping this conversation.
You spoke about bias and bigotry while being biased and a bigot.. I don't understand.
i hav a theory that the "attacked" in ashleyattacked means ashley ravaged by animals or ashley sexually assaulted
@ashleyattacked: I don't call you out in order to feel cool. I call you out because you're an attention whore and you're annyoing as hell.
By the time I finish reading this, Tree of Savior CBT2 would have started..
@duzz: I troll.
Beginning...middle...end.
It gets no more cruel, mean or controversial than that.
It's especially amusing that my 'trolling' consists of nothing but practicing English. I admit my tone shifted the more frustrated and angry I got with this board as a whole...in its expression towards hurting me on a personal lvl.
Many of the controversial ideas attributed to me fall somewhere between me lacking the English skills to properly present my ideas or thoughts...and me somewhat baiting people with trigger lines and nonsense. My threads defending the jews arise from my background and my family history in eastern Europe. I thought and still think that many American's take for granted their isolation from real world problems. The reason I dwell on this is particularly expressed in the notion that if someone here acts racist against a 'black' person - they stand to lose their job, their friends - etc.
But if they make a joke against the Jews - heck, that's funny!!
Are you guys serious??
The friggin Jewish people were very nearly EXTERMINATED AS A RACE just friggin 70 years ago.
The 'black people'...?
Two wrongs don't make a right - but they also don't make the systematic race based genocide of 6 million ppl in JUST 1.5 YEARS less flipping serious than black/white racism.
I may have ticked off people along the path to try to get people to realize that this sort of moral equivocation is evil but whatever. It is what it is and to think I'm advocating racism based on any ground whatsoever is ridiculous. Even more ridiculous when these same people try to insinuate that I am saying 'racism doesn't exist' or that any expression of racism is anything other than abhorrent. No. I am not saying that its okay to be racist because the Jews were targetted for systematic extermination as a race 70 years ago. Thinking I said anything like that is patently stupid.
But there DOES exist a HUGE and important disparity between big R racism...the kind that ended with 6 million Jews gas'd or 4 million Ukrainians starved to death in 1 year and the over the top race jingoism thats so disgusting in America. I'm not trying to say anything is wrong with Americans - but there is a HUGE disparity and it's very much worth considering when people dilute the importance of this subject by ramming their morals down the throat of every stupid person who makes a joke about black people sagging their pants. Don't friggin tell me I'm saying racism doesn't exist bc the Jews in Europe roughly ceased to exist 70 years ago. I'm saying that the importance of this subject, a subject whose best expressions is found not in stopping the terrorist reign of white ppl making jokes about KFC chicken or about azn's and anime. No. It's in stopping another systematic race based genocide for EVER happening again...and, my fear is that by ramming silly morals down the throats of every person making a joke about Mexicans and Beans -- we're missing the friggin point. Not just that - we're diluting the waters of a VERY serious subject - in some ways THE MOST SERIOUS SUBJECT - and rendering it somehow 'silly' by association.
If I advocate tolerance towards anything approaching racism in any form - it's done not towards the ends of allowing for anything racist whatsoever. It's bc I acknowledge the deep, HUGELY DEEP AND INGRAINED...roll that racism has ALWAYS played in our specific since the beginning of time. I don't want to tolerate any form of racism - but when it's about reaching the largest possible number of people on a lvl that we can all come together on a general consensus of right/wrong/evil as it pertains to racism - the goal, in my mind, is not to lock the subject down tight and let nothing get loose - it's to get thru to the greatest number of people on a shared consensus as I can and have the largest possible number of them come away from the subject realizing that the biggest reason to think genocidal expressions of racism are a REAL threat is bc 'they if it happened friggin once, it can happen again'...instead of walking away pissing away the seriousness of the subject with American stupidity by trying to convince everyone that jokes about Asians and calculators are a direct extension of race based genocide. No. All that does is make people laugh and tell off colour jokes and render the whole subject tantamount to a joke.
That's dangerous.
WALK UP TO THE CLUB LlKE WHATTUP I GOT A BIG CLOCK
@ashleyattacked: I do admit that I am occasionally a little irritated by some of the things you write, but I can see that it's harmless.
Being hurtful though is a crappy thing to do, even though sometimes I'll write something horrible and mean. I'll usually regret it later on and send that person a PM or whatever. I have a hard time sticking to my guns, and I say terrible things in the heat of the moment. I don't know if that redeems my bad behavior, but it makes me feel better .
All in all, I think being mindful is key. Understanding each other's perspectives and putting yourself in other peoples' shoes is helpful. I'm just rambling at this point, but I hope people stop acting like assholes around here, me included.
im here for long paragraphs
@duzz: I don't pretend to say I don't come across that way anymore.
I'm playing into it now for whatever fun it represents...
People here are rude and I just can't fathom what it takes in someone to try as hard as these people have to inflict pain on me. I never did a damned thing to any of them. I was cautious, clear, made sure to let them know what I was doing (practicing my English...and intentionally using larger words and cadences I pick up wherever...just to get used to the language)
When it started I was clear to let them know that this and that was truly hurtful to me and specifically made me hurt. You know what? Basil only doubled down on its collective attempts to inflict real life pain.
So I gave up and stopped caring. If people are that morally reprehensible then so be it. Now I just have fun and entertain myself the way I want. I've actually met a lot of people who enjoy the sort of nonsensical play I post here, dressed up in various historical references, etc. I've had a lot of rly fun convos bc of all that. Outside of that - if people are still having fun trying to hurt someone they don't know and have no idea what impact they're having - so be it.
@ashleyattacked: I don't think anyone doubts that you're knowledgeable, but it's just that you apply it in such a strange way.
Frankly, you do come off as sort of arrogant whether or not you believe it.
doh! she came back gfsdjfklsajfdkgsakfdjsaklfdjlkfjadslk
@endurance: I'm blessed with a perma safety charm.
@ashleyattacked: have u took a look ingame? you should be dead right about now..
No, I'm not a spambot.
I genuinely feel bad for people who are left with a world where they cannot even remotely appreciate the random quotes, vague references and loosely connected historical non sense I have so much fun throwing around out of boredom. But it's not just that - I'm not feeling arrogant as someone that, imo, is far better and more widely read than anyone she has ever come across...no. That's book knowledge...which roughly works out to an equation hinged to no degree on intelligence.
But where I feel bad for people is when it comes to the leap between all of that - and the sudden determination that they are not only in a position to naively call me out and betray their shortcomings in history, but also in their ability to understand what I'm saying, the random playfulness I'm insinuating into it (for example, I was randomly playing around a bit back and got insulted for dwelling on saturdays, the Brits taking a picnic in the country and dropping surprises. Of course it was only loosely derived from anything of historical basis - BUT it still was...and I was insulted for being unread and lacking the ability to 'coherently put it all together.' Actually - I was kinda surprised to see someone use a big word like 'coherently'...but thats where any feelings like that crashed and burned. For some sense of the way I joking express boredom and practice writing - go back to what I just said about saturday, the Brits, etc. Yeah - it all sounds nonsensical - but...what I was actually doing was making a joke about Nexon's manner of dropping patch related info. The thing that tied it all together is that throughout the 1930s and into the middle of maybe 1943ish (prolly around when tides started turning for the blitzkreig, Russian, specifically Stalingrad, etc) - But!! One of the silly tactics employed by Hitler was his way in which he kept his cards veryvery close to his chest - and, when finally ready to release them on his enemies, he stuck to a kinda silly tactic: namely, he almost always saved his 'surprises' - in whatever form - for Saturdays. Thus, what I was trashed for as being nonsensical drivel...was actually a clear reference. It goes further...bc, the way in which I tied it together with the Brits and picnics goes back to one of the theories some ppl have as to why this Saturday trend even existed...there was a kinda inside joke amongst the higher ups in the SS that Hitler did this Saturday crap bc he believed that the British might not notice since they didn't work on Saturday - instead going to the country to have picnics.
So there you go - virtually every nonsensical jab is actally completely sensical and just an attempt at layering and layering info on top of itself...mainly bc I have no else to use such stupid knowledge. BUT I WANT TO. lol. And, frankly, these sorts of odd flecks of knowledge are fun to share with other people...
Anyways - back to what I feel sorry for these people regarding - its not even that, it's that not only are they too dull to know, and I'll allow that its not fair to assume that anyone will pick up on a joke tying Freud, by way of him being a Jew, to a loosely associated quote by his once successor - later rival - Carl Jung (an Austrian) and a line from one of his books saying, half in jest, half in curiosity of the nature of the 'Symbol' (note how much Hitler got ahead of the game by playing so well in the the nature of the Symbol, etc...and, further, a quote from Jung that somewhat chided Freud but was also rly rather antisemetic and very questionable - 'And now Germany has her fuhrer.'
It's depressing...and I truly feel bad for the ppl to whom this applies to...that not only do these ppl not know what they're talking about - but that they're so self assured in their ignorance that they can't even begin to realize not only when they're out of their depth - but, instead, go ignorantly like an idiot a few steps further, past their right to claim fair degrees of ignorance - and plow straight, headlong, into the inability to know their own limitations.
But I'll go ahead and allow even that privilege to these ppl. But where they really cross the line is just past the line of their own stupidity and right about when they decide to wade in to their waist before unleashing personal attacks trying to hurt me or others.
If you're gonna be stupid, at least do it in the privacy of your own bedroom...and try ur best to avoid exposing yourself. Try even harder still to know that if you're gonna make a fool of urself and ur own lack of knowledge - at least don't do it when you're trying to hurt another person who has done nothing to you.
You may feel cool and all posturing behind your monitor like some sort of badass and taking 'easy' shots at some girl you don't know, never will know, because the cool kids are doing it too - but just stop. Don't triple dumb yourselves into a lather falling over yourselves to craft the next clever witticism out of, essentially, your own ignorance and stupidity. I never hurt you. Go to bed.
@kaxi thats whast my mom said to me too
@telvanni: "you are an irredeemably gluttonous coccydynia and a primitive coma-inducing proof that evolution can go in reverse and you are an unequivocally hideous hemorrhoid and a catatonic bug-eyed mediocrity-afflicted neophyte with glacially slow cognitive faculties."
in all seriousness, putting hard words just make you look silly.